Irony

It's funny how I am never able to seek solace at home.

I understand it now.....

Well, I am always the one that does not even consider the family a single bit all the time.

Yes, I am the selfish one. As always.

I am always the one, with the worst attitude ever.

Yes, I am always the one, with the worst character any daughter could have. Or simply, I am the worst daughter anyone can have.

Yes, I do not deny. There's no one in this universe can win me hands down being the most selfish, ugly, inconsiderate, ungrateful and useless individual anyone can be.

Thanks for reminding me all these once again. I will bear these in mind.

And also thank you for letting me know I am now a super individual who think so highly of myself cuz i earn some puny monies.

And yes, I will try my best. To have that 志气you're harping about on moving out. And once again, thank you very much from the bottom of my heart for letting me know who I am really.

I seriously can't thank you enough.

And no, this is not sacarsm.

So,

Thank you.

Sian ah....

Sigh, I dont have a single idea if I am liking what I am doing right now.... I just want to get pass this passing phase and break free from all these unseen restrictions....... Guess it's gg to be at least a tough 6 months ahead...... 一定要忍。。。。

Baaaaad...

Bad start..... Bad Day... Bad ending.... Sickening...

I missed being in the comfort zone... I missed being one of the more experienced staff.... BUT, I dont want to go back to the pharmacy...

Passing phase.... passing phase.... Shall not let myself rot in this 'comfort zone' whirlpool anymore.. Time to get back on my feet and get on moving... Ganbatte!

Care no more..

Shall just let it down.. and not let it affect me any longer. It may all just my one sided thoughts...

Things aside.... Kymmie & Joe got married in MS ytd! ^_^

And ya, things have been gg on well for work.... Am gg solo soon... So I can expect things to go downhill pretty soon. =( Wish me luck! byebye~

Changes...

I cant help but to feel there're too many changes for me to cope recently. Maybe in totality, all were nothing but my own doings. Why should I care so much when it doesnt even concern me at all? It's their lives not mine. 犯溅。。。

I am starting to tolerate nonsense (IMO) no more. Call me an old woman with stupind thinking, but why am I transforming into a petty individual which I find it a monsterous self? Changes.....

But yet those changes I see which I cant tolerate is wrong by integrity, character. So are all those feelings I have now redundant?

I am getting so frustrated by all those small lilttle things that I ususally choose to be blind to.... Maybe, and I hope.... all these are just the bad doings of the female homo sapiens' hormones...

I guess I am falling sick...... in mind.....

Brand New Start..

Finally have got the mood to blog.... Well well.... Have been having lotsa mixed feelings..

Work wise. So far so good. Am blessed enough to have Von with me... Guess I will always be stoning at one corner and be like a hermit crab if I am to be alone... But at least for now, everything's quite ok... 'Cept for the tonnes of information to be digested. Gg to school after a whole day training can be really bad....


School, have been habouring the thought of giving up these 2 weeks. And I know I cant.. This is so sickening... Sigh...

I want my honeymoon period back again la...... =( But work is not the main culprit for making me not want to work. It's school... Sigh....

Last Day of Freedom...

Alrite.. Damn emo now la...

My last day of 'leave' without the need of AL is coming to an end! Damn emo can!

Having a serious wardrobe crisis now. =( Anyway want to send me a US based credit card? ^_^

Sigh... Can I dont go work tmr? =p

下雨天

下雨天

作詞：梁心頤 作曲：張傑

下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你
我不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沈默的場景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

沙滩。。。

Feeling very.... blue........

Don't like the feeling of being helpless. =(

My break at last..

I am finally on a continuous break for at least 5 days.. To be exact, I have got 16 days of break before embarking on my new job. ^_^ So for now.... 15 more days of break left... Time.. please crawl.. for once... =P

I am hoping that I can get down to study during this short/long break.But seems like MS is e main distraction! Sigh... And lets see what I want to do....

- Ding Tai Fung please!! Craving for it for like dunno how long alr!
- Kbox! Shall wait till I fully recover...
- Shopping! Wardrobe crisis for my new job... And this wil be e most difficult task to complete..
- Kuishinbo! Cravings.. Cravings...
- Make my specs! I hate to squint my eyes during lectures!
- Clean up my room - I had started ytd by cleaning up my study table! ^_^
- Level 90 in MS! POssible? No? I dunno la... =p

Alrite... Think I might want to login MS awhile... BYEBYE!

i love chocs. =)

hehe... am savouring on the merci chocs dr ng bought of the clinic staff since he is leaving soon. gosh. the last time i had merci chocs shld be on jai's 21st bdae celeb la.. which is like on the 4th nov 2006 (5th nov 2006 mn). i misses those times....badly... =)

time crawls at work.... having mixed feelings towards everything now. but am sure it's not the wrong choice. =)

met up with my poly sisters (and ya, ben you're counted as 1 of the sisters =p) recently. enjoyed the meetup and think we shld have more of such meetups maybe with ai qin too. =)

i am so looking forward to my 2 weeks break. and no, i am not gg to travel to some corner of the world. i am so hoping that i can get my butt and mind off to some serious mugging. wish me luck... just hope maplestory server will be down... down... down.... =p

alrites. back to my lunch break. till then, bye.

S.P.E.E.D!

Ok.. This is a news I got to know like last month... But keep forgetting to blog it out...

My all time fave is BACK!!!

Woohoo~~~ I am so gg to buy their new single.... Please support Ashita no Sora! Arigatou Gozaimasu!! ^_^

Time of a proper update..

Orite... Time for a proper update...

Basically I no longer qualify for LSA which i always 'wanted' @ NHG...

Health status a question mark still.. Though am pretty sure I am orite... =)

Things at home... Ok la.. Dont know what to say... Those nitty gritty details are too much for me to repeat them again and again... Learnt to get over it and just hope everything will be alrite... whatever that may happen, will happen. No matter what I do to stop it from coming...

1 very impt point to note. Always try to live for yourself even though we know we're constantly living for others. =)

idunnohowtogoon...

Too many things happened recently that really make my mind into one big whirlpool... aint feeling good about all the single little things... all i can do is to pray for all to be well.. and may everything be smooth sailing for me... this is getting too tiring....

sick and tired of everything..

frustration to the max... sick and tired man.... fuck la..

moving on.... moving on.....

Finally have gotten the chance to move on... But yet I am having so much mixed feelings... Will update again on this matter after everything is confirmed. Till then... Byebye~

CMI... Really CMI...

Totally exploited....

it gets too...

it gets too monotonous and boring after we're in something for too long right? this is a very pointless & random post. am at counter 1 now and i am so dreading the work for the day to start... save me ah.....

好累。。。

觉得自己好像快要崩溃了。。。

顿时间，我感觉不到我的存在意义了。。。

有时真地会觉得，不知道自己的存在是为了什么。就觉得自己好像一个空壳。盲目的追求物质上的好。连我为什么要继续课业的理由都不懂了。 不知道是不是自己想太多， 就总觉得自己在做的一切很不世纪。感觉就好像我很盲目的在追求我在做的一切。算了。。。 顺其自然吧。。。

JCIA...

JCI audit is over for my place... Well, I find it rather... nvm....

We spent countless afternoons gg thru those mock audits.... Made lotsa effort to clean up this and that.... We cant eat in the pharmacy for so long... Just for tt < 10mins walk ard by the angmo.... -shake head-

Not forgetting the stress factor that could push your BP to 200/180. F!

To add on to those problems.... Studies have been getting really tedious, mentally... The fatigue is really starting to take its toll on me. I am totally dreading work. And I cant concentrate in class after 30 mins... Haiz... Alrite, I cant complain much for this, I brought it upon myself....

Maths test tmr... I am still procrastinating.. Have got no energy to study! < 6 hours of sleep everyday, and < 5 hours of sleep on school days is really very torturing.... I really wish to find a decent 5 days job soon.... If only I can just dont work for this 3 years (Dream on!)

Wish me luck, I am gg to try mug later on @ 10pm... ZZZ~

I'm a studious kid...

I love studying at TP lib.... Maybe I will love studying in SIM lib too.. But SIM is simply too faaaaaar.... And ya... I am a studious kid. =D

MC-ed

MC-ed. Need the time to study for my Maths test. Even though I foresee myself to flunk big time. Wish me good luck.

I want this phone!!!

Nostalagia....

I went back to TP for a studying session, it felt great to be back in TP (even if it's for awhile...) And of course, the studying session is 75% fruitful.. Except for the occasional chit chatting... lame jokes and bouts of tension headache attacks, I really did study ok! =D

Well, used up 1.5 days of my AL this week and I am left with 2 days only.. Seriously I dont know how to survive.. As much as I want to leave my current workplace, I guess I will be staying throughout this year. Forget it....

I was pondering on some changes I noticed recently. Mainly on people... It's sad when u realise u cant relate as much to someone who usd to be so dear anymore right? You noticed the change is so big that sometimes you can't recognise the person infront of you used to be your confidante. And when I mean the big change, its something for the worst imo. And what make it worse, I dont know how to tell the person neither do the person know he/she had changed that much. Well, maybe nothing ever changes... Just that I am being too paranoid, sensitive. Or maybe just that the person is still the same, just that I have never notice those traits all these years I know him/her. Sad la...

I hope I can get on track for my revision later on. As much as I hate maths, I do start to feel that it may get a lil exciting when I attempt those alien questions. Wish me luck for maths, and stats. =)

I set my foot into...

I set my foot into Sentosa today....

And ended up a roasted pig... ZZZ...

This aside.. Let me introduce you to my very 'hip' parents... That's my mum playing my Nintendo DS Lite and My father playing my sis PSP Slim... Damn 'hip' la!

Aiyo....

I am so tempted can.....

I read through the student handbook that I received along with my study guides ytd.... (This yr UOL seems to be more efficient... as what pple in e forum say la...)

And I saw this section on Summer School...

Tempting tempting!!

Course fees for 1 session (20days) - 1125pounds -> bound to be increase for next yr...

Accomodation for 1 session... - differ for different residences and room type... If lets say I am gg to share a rm with another person, it will come up to about 700pounds per person...

The air tix.... Will come up to about 2k...

Expenses... I dont know about the expenses there... But lets say I put 2000 for approx 3 weeks (frankly speaking... I think its defintely not enough...)

Then it will come up to approx 10k can!

Any kind soul want to donate some money to me? I want to go for summer school la!!!

I hate this...

I dont understand how can one be so irresponsible...

Y make others feel stressful and worried on their behalf when its their own life?

My silence does not means I don't care. But I am freaking tired to show my displease already. I really dont understand why a grown up like you can be more mature? Instead always getting stuck in your own world thinking that you;re the only one whose really sick and tired of everything.. You're the one suffering the most. C'mon! Spare a thought on how the people around u feel too!

I dont know why.. But you no longer command that kinda respect I used to have already...

Shucks...I want to get out of this phase asap.

i neeed a breaaaak~

As I was flipping the papers today (MyPapers).... Japan is said to be one of the tourist destination this year due to the weak Yen! Can I go???????????? SIgh... I seriously need a break la...

School's seriously draining me... I may be able to give my 101% of attention in class, but the moment I reached home.. I am like concuss-ed~ And the work for the following day will be disastrous.... I seriously hope this is an adapting phase only....

I am gg for a K session tmr!!! Like finally la.... But I am like having some sore throat? Heck la.... I want to spend money!!!! I want to go travelling!!!

Taiwan!!! I am so missing u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pictures updates....

WARNING: A HEAVY PICTORIAL POST!

A Meetup with Poly Pals... Finally!

Sze Hui's Farewell

Fellie's Bdae Celeb~

Remember?

Remember about the patient I talked about on my last few posts?

She had passed away a few days ago....

Motivation-less

Shucks... I seriously need lotsa motivation...

I am lagging badly for my maths class... People with A or C Maths background seriously have got an upperhand with the way the class is being taught... And again, I really cant adapt the way Mr teong's brother teach... ZZZ

Stats is still ok.... However when I tried to do the tutorial earlier on.. haha~ bad la.. Some facts just cant seems to get into my head.... Time for some serious revision... -bless me-

Szehui had left TPY alr.... Hope she will do and cope well in Hougang though... Am glad she crossed my path, and hopefully I will still see her ard in sch... She have been a really good companion in tpy with me... I will definitely miss her though... Cuz she's not just a colleague, but a good friend to me too. =)

Anyway, finally have a meetup with Ben and qin.... Although its quite obvious that we dont have much topics to talk about.. But its still nice to see friends that we seldom see right? Haha~ Seems like we really meet each other once a year.... Hope all things will goes well for qin's studies and her new job... As for ben.... Looks like we didnt talk much... We should meetup tog with glads and qin la... haha~

This is a pointless entry.... So ignore it... What I am trying to convey is.. I am very SIAN....

**Huang Jinglun & Sugie are both eliminated from XGDD3 already! Sadness la... I thought HJL can get into Top 5... Haiz... I dont like tt Obama... =X

Some tests...

As I 'link-hopped' from Joanna's blog..

I tried out this test....

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Test @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2nd test...

You value your friendships: 70%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Test @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test78.aspx

I LOVE FELICIA NG LA!!

I cant help but to say this again!!

FELICIA NG IS MY IDOL LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!

Life sucks...

Life sucks when calculators cant be used!!!

I simply hate to plot those stupid graphs using fraction.. How on earth can any normal people can plot graphs using fractions! ARGH!

For a qns that's supposedly to be done in 10 mins or so... I am using 1hour... haha~ Ho seh bo...

I am not bring agitated.. Just find it amusing...

I guess I still have a looooong looooooooooooooooooong looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong way to go.....

Please let me be motivated to do my stats tut today or tmr~~~

School's Starting....

It's weird how I am not getting the jittery feeling for school's start for me tmr....

I am feeling more of worried actually... Haha~

Just hope everything will be fine. I hope I will be strong enough to stay on my present job, I still want my LSA... =P

So qad, fellie, kymmie, gla.... Let us strive for good honours k? Haha~ Jia you... =)

It struck me hard...

Today I saw one of the patient that I really dread serving... It had been some time since she came.... She used to 'patronise' the clinic at least once a week or once every 2 weeks....

She used to trouble the PSAs by having to cancel her bill everytime she forgot to request for the medications she want...

She used to irritate the doctors by making them amending her prescription several times.. Because she just can't seem to remember what she want and tell the doctor at one go...

She used to irritate the hell out of me because she have got lotsa questions and can't seems to remember what I told her... And she will ask the same question over again and again...

I always 'bully' her by asking to go find the doctor herself to add the medications.. (This is SOP-right). I didnt offer to call the doctor to request the medications on her behalf before.... (We are not really allowed to do this... unless there's no other alternatives - nasty patients...)

I never help her to write the indications and instructions willingly on her medications label because she always ask the same old question....

Today she came....

No longer with her umbrella, no longer speaking in that loud and strong voice.... no longer staring at me/other pts with that big eyes....

She sat on her wheelchair that seems pretty new.... Eyes were half closed, can't really hear, can't really pay attention....

Her son seems to be more 'obedient' as he no longer argue with her in the pharmacy... No longer scolding her saying she's so troublesome... Instead, he stayed with her and offer to listen to our drugs dispensing.... And make her listen as well....

I also willingly to dispense with my really broken hokkien for the very first time... Sad isn't it... (I hate to dispense in hokkien, fyi...)

I still remember how she say she need to rush back home to cook dinner.... That's like 6 mths ago?

She look so weak and frail today... I didnt cry nor I tear... But I almost did.... My heart wrench at the sight of her.... She's around 80+ - 90 y/o... Though she can be deem as healthy at her age... But I cant help but to feel really sad when I see the change in her within these 2 years....

Somehow, I was thinking... Will her son be very helpless if ever 1 day Mdm SST left.... It seems like both of them depend on each other a lot....

I really cannot imagine... My own parents becoming like her in the future.... I cant imagine myself becoming like her in the future.....

And it is also today.... I understand the reason why I am still 'lingering' in NHG Pharm.

I hope I can let the other old folks out there to age more 'comfortably'. They may be down with several chronic diseases... They maybe feeling weak and helpless... But somehow when we, the service staff in healthcare shows that we do care and willing to help them... They will feel happier....

They may complain, they may scream at us saying how slow are we.... But they're still the patients...

Of course, there're black sheeps out there that criticise us when we do our job.... But there're also people who appreciate what we do (though they're the minority...)....

This incident did not rekindle the so called 'passion' and 'compassion' in me to stay on in healthcare frontline....

It made me realise, I will still hope I am able help whenever I can.... I will also take pride in what I do even if I detest doing it....

And this afternoon, I did my best in clearing patients... Giving them the clearest instructions I can give... Only to hope all their diseases can be lifted and be free from these illnesses....

So, please give me the strength to face it. Human will age and die... Please do give me the patience, to serve all patients with pride and empathy...

And last but not least, all people to be appreciative to give me that support and encouragement to stay on with the other frontline staff to help whatever we can...

Jia you... =)

I miss life in TP, badly...

I went to have a campus tour of TP this evening, alone...

I missed school life in TP so badly...

It was so much fun as compared to secondary school days...

And I am pretty sure it will be better than my upcoming p/t school life too...




Why do we have to grow up? Sigh....

My deepest condolences...

My deepest condolences to the 2 NSF who passed away on Tues and Wed respectively.

Got to know the regular (Pilot Trainee) whom passed away on Wed is the bf of a ASc jr and my friend's friend... Felt pretty sad by the news actually.. Hope she and the family will picked themself up asap...

And also, got to know a TP BMS(PST I think) senior who is in the batch before me passed away due to fever caused by viral infection. (Or purely viral infection?) earlier on this week. Don't know her personally but got to know about her thru Flowerpod earlier last yr. And she's only 24 this year. Sigh... Her last post in FP also says that she's down with a fever caused by viral infection. And who knows for the following day or 2, shes in ICU alr... Life's so unpredictable....

I really can't imagine anyone close/dear to me goe someday... Please please please be well and healthy and don't leave any people you love behind.

And as for me, I think I have become more paranoid. Things like 'What happen if I just die like that' actually set me to deep thinking mode recently...

Life's really fragile and unpredictable.. People, please do show the love you have for the people surrounding you while you can...

If ever 1 day I am gone, please please please help me tell my father & mother, I truly love the both of them....

I want to travel too!

Alrite.. Sis is gg to HKG next mth...

Sze Hui is planning for a Japan trip next yr....

When will my next overseas trip come?!?!?!??!!

Seriously, I think chance of my gg overseas next yr June is like.. 50% 50% only... SIGH!

Gek Sim Ah...

Just when I am looking thru HWZ earlier on, then I came across this article posted online...

UniSIM launches first local university part-time accountancy degree in collaboration with five public accounting firms

(http://www.unisim.edu.sg/uni/pub/gen/uni_pub_gen_content.cfm?mnuid=61&id=3496)

HO SEH BO!

Let me recap the reason why I did not choose UniSIM over SIM-UOL earlier on.

1. No Direct Honours/Honours
2. Course fee as expensive as compared to SIM Global Education
3. No accountancy. There's finance, but not really what I want to try.

Now? They're starting a degree program - Bacherlor of Accountancy (Hons). With 40% subsidy and industrial internship. GEK SIM AH!

And what, UniSIM accountancy will be studying FRS (Financial Reporting Standard) under SIngapore Standard. SIM-UOL will be studying FRS under UK standard....

AND WHAT'S MORE! UniSIM's Accountancy is awaiting accreditation from ACCA & ICPAS (Singapore Official Body for CPA - Certified Public Accountant). SIM-UOL A&F grads will need to go through with ACCA level 3 examinations or ICPAS professional examinations again before we can be a CPA in 3 years time. And in order to take ACCA level 3 exams and/or ICPAS professional exams, I must take certain modules in SIM-UOL. Sian not?!

And I think there's a high chance for UniSIM's application for accreditation to be approved since the 5 firms cooperating with them is pretty prestigious, considering that 1 of the Big 4 auditing firm - KPMG is one of the partners.

Haiz... Suan le....Let me be gek sim a bit more.... Then I need to get ready for school already.

SIAN AH~!

原来我什么都不想要。。。

没了。。。 放手了。。。心情也轻松起来了。。。 想回去，自己也很不踏实。。。 既然都是过去事了，就让我们往前看吧。。。 =）

School will officially starts on the 8th July for me. Not looking forward. So many people out there is telling me how tough it will be. How I will not cope with a full time job and school. How I will definitely suffer. Thank people, I understand all of you is trying to prepare me for what is coming, actually I don't need so much of all these constant reminders for now. All I need is you all to be there (maybe for a K session? =P ) if ever 1 day I really can't take the stress anymore.

And for the people who have been telling me I am not a material for studying, and I am not supposed to be so infilial to continue studying. I should be working and provide for my parents. Thank you too. You/Both of you have been a great help. You've let me realise how infilial, irresponsible and selfish I am. However I have got my own plannings. And coming from a not-so-well-to-do family should not deprive me the chance to study right? Why should a degree programe be catered to the rich ones only? Furthermore, I am providing for my own degree. I am still contributing to my household expenditures. I am still trying to fulfil the filial piety duties as much as I can. So can you (2) please leave some space for me? I am trying, really. I know I am really selfish to only think of myself. But all I want is a passport for me to search a better paying job to provide for my folks and myself. I hope I am not wrong holding on to this thought. So for the time being, please get off my back. And let me live my life as my own. I don't need your judgement for now, and maybe even in the future. I hereby sincerely thank you in advance.

Haiz~

I drank 3 cups of green tea already... And I am still feeling sleepy... And no, no coffee for me... =)

And, I am so tempted to start my stationary shopping!!

And QAD, I hope all goes on well for you. And I really hope 1 day nothing could stop us and just let us leave the shithole we're in now. =)

*Joanna, today your aunt actually asked me if I know u.. haha~ Anyway if she say my attitude not very good... Tell her to pardon me ah... Met a few of nasty patients just before her.. LoL~ And in any case, how did she recognise me? Don't tell me you told her 'very easy to recognise one... the big big round round jiu shi le....' =X hahaha~

It's a steal!

I finally got both a scanner & printer that can work!!! Hehe.. its those kinda all-in-one kinda printer/scanner la.... And I got it @ $88!!! What a steal! But I am $88 poorer now.. Can't wait for my next paycheck on the 28th JUNE la.... Sigh...

When life took a sharp turn...

Seems like pple around ain't really getting on well and fine... Can only hope/wish/pray that all will turn out to be good at the end of everything...

Work's still e same. Black sheep(s) here and there as usual. I can only say, empty vessels make the most noise. So think, before you speak. People will judge you by the messages you're conveying be it if that's your intention or not. Period.

Course briefing tmr, the fact that I am starting school soon is setting into me already. I am not feeling jittery but dreadry instead. Maybe I shld just kick the thought of wanting to resign in my mind and concentrate on other more important things. (LONG SERVICE AWARD!!! ^____^)

Am gonna stop here. Xing Guang Da Dao in a hour time. =D

I miss Taiwannnn~

I really miss Taiwan la... Nvm nvm... REN! I shall set my foot into Taiwan hopefully within the next 3 years time. (A lil too long, but I shall endure!)

Lemmingsssss

Lemmings Lemmings.... I need a new wallet anyway... Any kind generous soul out there?

WDNYYDDX (Figure it out yourself =P )

Heh heh... Had a dream last night... Still can remember vividly what happened. (there's this saying that if you can rmb your dreams vividly, it will not happen. I believe that will be the case too... =P ) Anyway its nice la.. LoL~ Funny yet impossible.. Heh heh.... Nvm... Shall be a secret for my own.... Tooooooo silly to be shared la... =X

Mood @ work have been rather good. Or maybe not good la. Just that I am more enthusiastic over drugs dispensing... Something is very wrong with me.. But oh wellll, it still beat being totally turn off-ed for dispensing right?

I guess my PMS period is over. 3 cheers for me pleaseeee. =D Guess its really one of the worse moodswings I ever had... Since its over, who cares! =D

And on a even happier note, I am gg for KBox, Kuishinbo session soon!! Say goodbye to money and hello to sinful happiness!! (^_^)

今天有一点high过头。其实有很多真经事要打出来的。 不过我想了想，觉得可能真的是我多心。所以也没去放在心上。过了就算了。因为。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 我是一个好人！！！！ =D

Is power de lor..

Since I am so bored here.. As its my lunch time now.. Let me show u guys some vids...






IS POWER DE LORRR.....

For a moment..

I hate this feeling I am having now...

Not pms-ing yet I felt like I am pms-ing...

Feeling very down yet I don't know the reason why....

Felt like talking to someone yet I don't want to talk...

Can I just make up my mind what I want? Urgh...

Ignore me..

Bloghopped~

"I realised that there are too many older people out there who think that those younger ones are just a bunch of kids who knows nothing. And is frustrating when this old people start giving you advices like you know nothing. And they are the ones who think too highly of themselves. Gosh! What's wrong with these people?"

Was bloghopping and I see this statement said by this particular person/blogger... It's so freaking true la.. This kinda pple exist everywhere! Just because they are older they will always think their opinions is right... WTH is gg on in their brain/mind? Does the number of years living on planet earth equates to how intelligent you will be? Even with high IQ, it will be as bad if you have nil EQ.

One eg of such person, that freaking p.cist at my workplace. But anyway, I have met a lot of people like this in my life so far. So what can I do when dealing with them? Can only be superficial. Smile, nod, agree and don't talk except for some response for the sake of not being so rude. ZZZ!~ This sucks la.... I am becoming so superficial. But come and think about it, I don't even bother to be 'polite' to the p.cist at my workplace. No point la... He will never get what I am saying anyway.

Ah, whatever. Back to youtube and my dinner.. Bye.

[9pm update: Jan, my 6th sense is right la... =) ]

Let us...

A moment of silence for those innocent lives lost in Myanmar & Sichuan, Chengdu.

I can't help but to really feel for the people there... sigh...

Hectic days ahead....

A bbq tmr.. a party on sat... Man.. I really hope my flu won't break out into a very bad one... (i really hate coughs, soure throat & runny nose!)

Have been doing a lot of thinking these days. Or rather reflection. Realise I could have treat the people around me with more sincerity... At times I find myself so superficial, which I can't even take it myself. I also find that I am rather self-centered. Yeah, I hope I can be a better person.

Been trying to be nice to everyone at work (except for that irritating 2, cant be bothered with them). With all the pleases, thank yous & sorrys. It can really get tiring at times when you know people around you is so particular about all these. Sometimes I can't help but to felt that these pleases and thank yous make the people interaction so shallow and prevent it from developing into something with more depth.

But a person's mind and thoughts are amazing isn't it? All of us is given the same things at birth. Maybe some are less fortunate with birth defects. However most of us being similar at birth, actually managed to 'morphed' into an individual so different from one another. Intellectual wise, looks wise, emotional wise etc... How can one mindset differ so much? How can 1 so empathetic with animals and 1 so cruel to throw kittens/puppies down from 12th storey etc etc... (just an example.. though i do know pple who throw cats down.... )

I do not know what set me to think about all these. I am rather perplexed by the complexity of human emotions. Those emotions is still the main culprit/driving force for us to do something good/bad isn't it? Isn't there a way for us to control how we feel? Like the remote control in the movie 'Click' that can rewind/fast forward the events of life... I would want a remote control to control one's emotion... for a good cause. =D

Anyway I shall stop here. Somehow or rather, I find my post very pointless and random. Right?

Bye....

(let me healthy asap, please. let my back, cough, sore throat, runny nose back to normal when i wakes up tmr. =D GYMM please... =D )

I want to....

I WANT TO TRAVEL LA!!!!!!!!!

I'm like... so not in the mood for work...

My RELC package is laying on my comp desk for sooooooooooooooooo long already and I have yet to open up and read through it....

I am feeling so so so so bored can!

Actually I have got some thoughts to pen it down.. But I am rather lazy to do so.. So I'll blog about it the next time when I have got the mood to do so...

Before I go, I just want to say...

SCREW ALL THOSE WHATSOEVER ACCREDITATION!!!! ZZZZZ

I am ok...

Alrite.. I am ok la... Back is still painful.. but at least there's no crack or fracture or anything.. Just that I fall hard and hit my bone quite hard too... =)

Things at home is extremely gloomy... I dont know how to let them know I am feeling lost, confused too... I guess they will never come to terms that I DO FEEL STRESSED UP BY THEIR MATTERS TOO...

As much as you want my comments, you all aint willing to listen. What you all expect from me?

When I say I shall care no more. What you all want, you all go decide yourself. Now I become the bad person. What you all want from me? What you all want me to say to you? Can just type out a script? I will just act out for you. I am feeling tired AS WELL.

If only they can read what I am typing here..

Of course I would hope that things can become MUCH better... But when both is not willing to listen. And both think their support (me) is not helping them and making them feel like unwanted in the family, things will not become better...

我真的不想管了。。。

I am ok, no worries. Guess I am done with my update. Ciaoz~

So contradicting..

I have been thinking of tking MC today.. However had decided that I should save up my MCs for the later part of the year... So I dunno if it's cuz QAD left Silkair, her MC curse is passed down to me or its just my luck...Guess its e latter... (QAD! Jk la.. hehe~)

Yesterday morning started off really bad with an extremely heavy rain... Were thinking of my really slippery sandals... Luckily my dad agreed to send me to the TP busstop... Then followed by massive jams despite the fact that I went out 15 mins earlier than usual, I reached tpy inter like 20 mins later than usual..

My 'glorious' arrival at the TPY inter is accompanied by a really nice fall on my back... Guess this fall really mark the worse slip/fall so far... The pain is... I dont know how to describe.... I can't sit at all can... Maybe I can, but the getting up part is really torturous.... My colleagues' guess is tt I had hurt my tailbone/spine.. dunno la... It still hurts..

Now I can't lie down. I cant sit... Alrite, not so bad.. I can sit n lie down.. Just that it isnt easy... I kept on waking up in e middle of the night due to the pain and discomfort... Now, as much as I wan to keng MC... I would rather to be at work now... Sigh..

And ya, I will be off to the polyclinic to see e Dr later... Not sure if I would need a X-ray... I seriously hope its nothing serious! Sigh.. Suay la....

I guess my last 36 bucks to survive till 25th will be depleted by today.. Bless me pls..

-outz-

Pondering...

It's a lazy Sunday.... The smoke from the joss sticks is really irritating me....My eyes that is...

Can't wait for Epi 19 to be screen tmr~

Am still considering whether to try for the position Von told me abt... Too many things to consider.. Of course for people who know me well have already given up hopes on me... I am too fickle minded alr... WOrry for too many things that is like not impt... Like what 1 of my colleague say, if I cont to think so much, I will definitely get the Long Service Award from NHG. (Provided I'm not being sacked la... =p)

The Annual Performance Appraisal is coming soon.. Not that I am very bothered by what my superiors gonna say about me. It's not gg to be positive anyway. I can even dream on for wanting a decent testimonial before I leave. However, I am more concern over the money I will get... Imagine if I get a C this year, I am only entitled to 0.25 of certain bonus components la... Sian... If only I do not need to worry so much on the finance for my studies....

Was talking to Regina regarding some issues on growing up... I guess its really like what I seen/heard from somwhere... A person emotion throughout the life is like a 'U' shape.... You start off high, feeling good with all attention being showered on you. And its gradually goes down the slope when responsibilites start to weigh down on our shoulders. Problems from friends, family, your loved one, work start to weigh our heart as well... As you grow older, your kids are grown up and started their own family, your burden then slowly got offloaded 1 by 1. Then you start to feel happier in the golden years of life.

However on 2nd thought, as you feel happier in the later part of life. Does it seems that your own responsibilities are being offloaded onto someone else shoulder? Then the whole vicious cycle continues.. Sigh...

As much as I rant, complain about anything or anyone in my life. I also cant imagine if anyone or any of such disappear from my life. Alright... I guess its more of the people...

So conclusion, thanks to anyone out there who have left their footprints in my life. Even if we are no longer friends, no longer talk to each other. I would hope that there will be 1 day we can still talk when we bump into each other on the streets. But as of now, I hope every single one of u is happy with their life.

And to those whom is still with me. I love all of you. =)

SIan de lor....

Sian Sian Sian!

I want to cut/trim my hair la....

I want to tidy up my room la....

I want to get MC for tmr la...

BUT....

TOO LAZY LA~

ARGH! Out...

Backdated Photo Blog

And I am back from a 3d2n chalet with my babes! Hehe~ It's a total R&R chalet retreat.. I guess almost everything is like impromptu.. Including the BBQ... haha~ Here goes... *BEWARE* Lotsa photos!

Introducing the long time ex-lab partners!

As me, Jan & Xiao Ben got too bored!
And in actual fact, Jan hates Ben!!!

As we got a lil bored during BBQ, we started playing with our cam!

And to prove QAD's fetish here... Haha~

And introducing Hao hao Mao Mao!!!! CUte eh!

On a side note, we had a karaoke session on 05042008... Hehe~ A worthwhile session, I guess we will be gg back to Chinatown for more KBox session? Sigh.. Have a craving for KBox again... ZZ~ Shall we go again soon? hehe~