I am ok...

Alrite.. I am ok la... Back is still painful.. but at least there's no crack or fracture or anything.. Just that I fall hard and hit my bone quite hard too... =)

Things at home is extremely gloomy... I dont know how to let them know I am feeling lost, confused too... I guess they will never come to terms that I DO FEEL STRESSED UP BY THEIR MATTERS TOO...

As much as you want my comments, you all aint willing to listen. What you all expect from me?

When I say I shall care no more. What you all want, you all go decide yourself. Now I become the bad person. What you all want from me? What you all want me to say to you? Can just type out a script? I will just act out for you. I am feeling tired AS WELL.

If only they can read what I am typing here..

Of course I would hope that things can become MUCH better... But when both is not willing to listen. And both think their support (me) is not helping them and making them feel like unwanted in the family, things will not become better...

我真的不想管了。。。

I am ok, no worries. Guess I am done with my update. Ciaoz~

So contradicting..

I have been thinking of tking MC today.. However had decided that I should save up my MCs for the later part of the year... So I dunno if it's cuz QAD left Silkair, her MC curse is passed down to me or its just my luck...Guess its e latter... (QAD! Jk la.. hehe~)

Yesterday morning started off really bad with an extremely heavy rain... Were thinking of my really slippery sandals... Luckily my dad agreed to send me to the TP busstop... Then followed by massive jams despite the fact that I went out 15 mins earlier than usual, I reached tpy inter like 20 mins later than usual..

My 'glorious' arrival at the TPY inter is accompanied by a really nice fall on my back... Guess this fall really mark the worse slip/fall so far... The pain is... I dont know how to describe.... I can't sit at all can... Maybe I can, but the getting up part is really torturous.... My colleagues' guess is tt I had hurt my tailbone/spine.. dunno la... It still hurts..

Now I can't lie down. I cant sit... Alrite, not so bad.. I can sit n lie down.. Just that it isnt easy... I kept on waking up in e middle of the night due to the pain and discomfort... Now, as much as I wan to keng MC... I would rather to be at work now... Sigh..

And ya, I will be off to the polyclinic to see e Dr later... Not sure if I would need a X-ray... I seriously hope its nothing serious! Sigh.. Suay la....

I guess my last 36 bucks to survive till 25th will be depleted by today.. Bless me pls..

-outz-

Pondering...

It's a lazy Sunday.... The smoke from the joss sticks is really irritating me....My eyes that is...

Can't wait for Epi 19 to be screen tmr~

Am still considering whether to try for the position Von told me abt... Too many things to consider.. Of course for people who know me well have already given up hopes on me... I am too fickle minded alr... WOrry for too many things that is like not impt... Like what 1 of my colleague say, if I cont to think so much, I will definitely get the Long Service Award from NHG. (Provided I'm not being sacked la... =p)

The Annual Performance Appraisal is coming soon.. Not that I am very bothered by what my superiors gonna say about me. It's not gg to be positive anyway. I can even dream on for wanting a decent testimonial before I leave. However, I am more concern over the money I will get... Imagine if I get a C this year, I am only entitled to 0.25 of certain bonus components la... Sian... If only I do not need to worry so much on the finance for my studies....

Was talking to Regina regarding some issues on growing up... I guess its really like what I seen/heard from somwhere... A person emotion throughout the life is like a 'U' shape.... You start off high, feeling good with all attention being showered on you. And its gradually goes down the slope when responsibilites start to weigh down on our shoulders. Problems from friends, family, your loved one, work start to weigh our heart as well... As you grow older, your kids are grown up and started their own family, your burden then slowly got offloaded 1 by 1. Then you start to feel happier in the golden years of life.

However on 2nd thought, as you feel happier in the later part of life. Does it seems that your own responsibilities are being offloaded onto someone else shoulder? Then the whole vicious cycle continues.. Sigh...

As much as I rant, complain about anything or anyone in my life. I also cant imagine if anyone or any of such disappear from my life. Alright... I guess its more of the people...

So conclusion, thanks to anyone out there who have left their footprints in my life. Even if we are no longer friends, no longer talk to each other. I would hope that there will be 1 day we can still talk when we bump into each other on the streets. But as of now, I hope every single one of u is happy with their life.

And to those whom is still with me. I love all of you. =)

SIan de lor....

Sian Sian Sian!

I want to cut/trim my hair la....

I want to tidy up my room la....

I want to get MC for tmr la...

BUT....

TOO LAZY LA~

ARGH! Out...

Backdated Photo Blog

And I am back from a 3d2n chalet with my babes! Hehe~ It's a total R&R chalet retreat.. I guess almost everything is like impromptu.. Including the BBQ... haha~ Here goes... *BEWARE* Lotsa photos!

Introducing the long time ex-lab partners!

As me, Jan & Xiao Ben got too bored!
And in actual fact, Jan hates Ben!!!

As we got a lil bored during BBQ, we started playing with our cam!

And to prove QAD's fetish here... Haha~

And introducing Hao hao Mao Mao!!!! CUte eh!

On a side note, we had a karaoke session on 05042008... Hehe~ A worthwhile session, I guess we will be gg back to Chinatown for more KBox session? Sigh.. Have a craving for KBox again... ZZ~ Shall we go again soon? hehe~

Looking forward!

Chalet short getaway is coming! Can't wait la.. Need a breather badly!

TKA is ending in like 3 weeks time? SO SAD CAN!!

And ya, I am having mixed feelings about school now... Can't wait for it to start and can't wait for it to end too... Sigh

Out...

TKA Epi 17 synopsis (in Chinese)

第17集

在醫院裡，湘琴立志要當直樹的好幫手，熙恆醫生是直樹的指導醫生。但直樹卻比他受歡迎。

開刀時，湘琴當杜澤森的助手，狀況連連，不但怕看開刀還太過緊張把鉗子刺到杜澤森的手。這讓大家懷疑她的能力，湘琴也對自己失去信心。
一夜突然有車禍病患上門，直樹明知實習醫生不能開刀，但還是當機立斷要替病患開刀，在人員不足下要求湘琴當助手，湘琴臨危授命緊張萬分，也擔心著直樹的前途……

開刀時湘琴還是慌慌張張的，但在直樹帶領下，湘琴看見直樹的專業與專注，湘琴終於當了個稱職的護士。術後，湘琴對直樹讚嘆，這時直樹卻抱住湘琴，直樹這時才顯露出初次醫治重症病患的害怕。

由於直樹自行替病患開刀，醫院開懲處會議，直樹認為自己是為救病患沒錯，眼看就要懲處直樹，在門外偷聽的湘琴衝入替直樹說話，加上護士主任清水說情，肯定直樹的醫術，醫生們討論後決定只罰直樹寫悔過書。

裕樹找直樹談，問他怎麼會喜歡湘琴，直樹說自己可以做到世界上 90 ％的事，而剩下 10

％自己作不到的事，湘琴卻可以做到。直樹說裕樹對好美的心情就是在吃醋。
裕樹到好美學校門口等好美，與好美開誠布公說自己聽見好美說自己沒男友，好美說因為覺得自己不是裕樹女友才會這麼說，感覺不到裕樹喜歡她。裕樹吻好美，向好美告白，兩人正式交往。

直樹在醫院工作勞累，回到家還要看湘琴的看護計畫，沒有休息時間。
在醫院，阿金抱著燙傷的克莉絲汀要直樹醫治，阿金發現只要一有問題，直樹還是最值得依賴的人。

湘琴發現直樹工作繁忙，身心壓力大，但是身為妻子湘琴卻什麼也沒作，湘琴自責。於是湘琴精心料理便當，帶到醫院給直樹，卻從樓梯跌下，直樹護住湘琴而被壓傷昏迷，湘琴大驚。

急診室外，湘琴因使直樹受傷而焦急擔憂，後來才發現直樹是小腿骨折，昏迷是因為直樹缺少休息營養不足。湘琴自願負起責任照顧直樹，但湘琴的照料只是讓直樹更累，湘琴私下替直樹收下直樹的工作，偷偷替直樹分勞寫這些病歷報告，要讓直樹安靜休養。

湘琴也因為護士工作加上分擔直樹的工作，因而身體不適，終於在醫院昏倒，於是作了一次醫療諮詢。

其他醫師來質問直樹的病歷報告，直樹這時知道湘琴幫他作這些工作，直樹怪湘琴把事情作糟，湘琴泣訴自己的無能，但她的作為都是為了直樹好，直樹體認湘琴的用心，怪自己沒能力接好自己妻子才會受傷，這次住院讓他明白患者的心情與湘琴堅強的看護
…

GOSH GOSH! Yu shu and Hao mei offically together... Bah!!
And it's ending soon... Sian-ed.. Gonna have those withdrawal syntopms
again!! I
STILL CANT WAIT LA!!

I can't wait la!!!

CAN THEY KISS AGAIN EPISODE 17 BE UPLOADED NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mummy's Girl 是也！！

总觉得我好像是人家掌控着的傀儡。没有一丝自己的选择自由的余地。自己的自由也完全被掌控着。出去聚餐也得看脸色，也得撒个谎。这样下去，任何人都会累垮。

难道我现在不是为了自己而活吗? 感觉上我做的每一件事都是为了敷衍,应酬别人的意思和想法。 慢慢的,自己的自我与及思想也活活的被吞没了。

我也发现我正在承担的压力是完全我为了不要起争执而产生的。可是渐渐的, 又为了避开争执发生更多的口角。我又从没尝试过说出我的感受? 尝试了,换来的却是更多的冷言冷语。这也让我觉得其实我的存在会让人感到更不高兴。我知道这些想法是很傻, 不过如果你们也换个角度来看我的人生, 在何时我做的决定真的是为我自己想呢? 说多,事情更多。那又何必说出我到底想什么呢? 算了,就如我以前说过的,就让我在这属于我自己的私人空间法个牢骚吧... 我也会渐渐得学会如何处理自己的想法与及感受。

好累。。。

It get too tiring when you don't know why you're working so hard for...

It gets too tiring when no one appreciate.recognise but make u a scapegoat instead..

Sigh... My job rocks to e core la! I so love my job. I shall really aim for the long service award! My career goal shall be a Pharmacy Executive in 15 years time. ZZZ

I DONT WANT TO WORK!

I HATE TO WORK!~

I HATE MY JOB!~

ARGH!~

Anyway it feels nice to meetup with my girlies after work la.. LoL~ QAD, next time when we meetup come to TPY and we go tamp tog la... =X

Nitez world!~ This is a pointless entry!