Like a fool...

Felt so tired, emotionally.

Dos not like this feeling of being judged/misunderstood.

Fuck, life.

Jovan. =)

And I cant wait for Jovan to grow up (W/o me aging =p ) ....

Totally Messed Up.

If not for you, things will go on smoothly. You just make me hate you more. Fuck.

Spring Clean...

Decided to delete this whole post. Forget it. Not impt.

Lousy Lousier Lousiest

Have been feeling very lousy these days. Have been trying to suppress negative thoughts for many days. Have been telling myself everything is still good, nothing have changed. Everything is getting better... everyday. It's taking a toll on me, mentally.

And fuck, why do I felt like some selfish faggot now? You will never understand my feeling. Bye.

夹心饼干的感受。。。

我再说的是夹心饼干中的淇淋的感受。。。

我真得很讨厌被夹在中间。。。 人与人之间真的需要一个messenger吗？ 为何我每次都需要做那个中间人。。。 难道我不会累吗？ 我也是人啊。。。 你们只知道自己受了委屈，那身边的人呢？为何要透视他们呢？我真的好累。 有谁了我呀。。。

Why,,,

Bkk Shopping Frenzy~*!

I'm back! Trip is good, could be better. =p

If I can, I want to go back to Siam@Paragon and continue snacking there! Think I am not a weekend baazar/night mkt person. I am spoilt la. So shopping malls for me! heh~

And ya, results. Did better than what I expected. I am feeling relieved more than anything. I hope I can perform better and let me clear everything within 3 yrs...

Hello to Land of Thousand Smiles in 6 hours time?

Haha... Of to Bkk in a few hours. May this trip be fun, safe and hopethat I will love Bkk too! =p

Handsome Suit. Wii. Fun. Loves. =)

Definitely the people whom I want to grow old with. Cheers to our friendship! =D

PPF. Limitations.

I felt like I am being bounded by so many restrictions.

I think I have an idea what I want to do in the future. Yet I cant go ahead to start what I want to do.

I think I have a slight idea what I want to pursue. Yet I do not have the courage and money to do so.

I think I need to move on and do something that will be beneficial to my future. Yet I am still stuck as a half civil servant.

I think I am too timid. Care too much over how people look at me. Worry too much over the 'what ifs'. I am my own limit. Yet I cant overcome it. One Word.

Useless.

Haiz...

Ultimate dreadz...

Sians...

On the other hand, I can't wait for 29th Aug. Though I dont know what to expect. Bah.

Outta here, bye.

I'm in class right now... and my lecturer is still talking nonsense... god knows how much longer is he going to take before he start e lesson proper... so much for telling us we do not have enough time for e whole syllabus. zzz...

today's a really bad day... e urge to give up and move on is so strong... yet i can't do anything about it. it sucks having to rant about e same things over and over again... but please pardon me as this is really e only outlet i have... :(

guess i really should start listening in class... thank goodness i do not need to entertain any idiotic people for e next 2 days.... sigh... aaback to my lesson... bye ...

Watch this...

After coming close to 2 years....

I am finally gg for a holidays soon! Yipee!!! I love impromptu happenings (good ones only pls)! Yipeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Home alone ep 2...

Jan's back home.... So i spent the night alone ytd.... Heh~ Think the webcam-ing at night help to ease e uneasyness a lil... Not so bad... Think I am really falling sick le... Sian ah....

Now I am wishing that I need not go back to work.... And if I go back to work, pls let me settle ah chang's case asap.... this case really headache. Haiz....

In conclusion, I dont want to work..

Family Photo... =p

Latest family photo.. =P

We make it!

Yay! =) Crust is a lil tad sweet though.. Now I want to bake a proper cake the next time.. Time to buy the necessary items and equiments! =D

Home alone...

I think for now still can survive the thought of being home alone... Not till next week comes.... I will definitely hate it.. If only I can go Taipei too......

Not good.

To be truthful, I don't feel good about it. Yet, no one owes me a living. Why should I feel so affected? No one is answerable to me in whatever they do or decide. Why am I still so affected? Nah, I think I am fine. I know what went wrong, what is the problem. But you still can't stop me from feeling this way. Sigh, if only I can be more...... nvm... As if things will change if i list everything out clearly. This is so f*ckening frustrating. Don't correct my english, my english have never been good. It have just reached the cui-ed stage. zzz~

Ok, nuff said. I just want everything to sail through smoothly. And yes, I can do it. I must do it. I do not have a choice...

I am so dreading that 1 week of home alone..... =S