Dead

The feeling seems so familiar. I have it often back in poly. And I hate it so much. If only I do not have any monetary constraint, then I can have a larger PPF with more opportunistic cost. Sian.

122nd.

Can I don't go back to this place tomorrow? Sigh...


Monday Blues attack, again....

I know you're gg to read this...

What's with the big tyrant behaviour back at home, and the 'I'm ok with anything' behaviour when you're outside? Grow up! You're not gg to get your way just by throwing your temper around. Not only you're acting like a spoilt brat, you only display how bad disciplined you are. In any case, maybe no one will believe what I say, simply cuz how you're behaving back at home differ too much. What can I say?

And I shall repeat this again, by throwing your temper. Trashing it out by kicking all the things in your way, shouting and screaming + crying will NOT let you get your way. Not only you damages all the things that get in your way at home, you will only let others believe that by not letting you have your way is RIGHT. GROW UP.

19 days to go...

Anyone gg to repeat yr 1 with me? Sigh.... It felt like nothing goes into my head after I moved on to the next topic.... Like whatever I studied prior to what I am studying now is NOTHING. Shucks. Am I getting THAT old? Argh....

Unsuitable.

I am beginning to believe, I am not cut out to be;

- an achiever
- a high flyer

........................

Whats with people?

Whats with people getting so heated up over small little comments that meant nothing and chose to ignore the important things instead?

If I can be totally financially independent, and I can be totally heartless.. I really will leave this damn place. Damn...

I realise...

I am so different when I am outside, be it at work or with friends as compared to when I am alone at home...

This is bad....... I can only coop and hide inside this shell of mine....

I am so damn f*cking tired!

My back aches big time! Damn.... I am so damn tired and I wish I can go on a verbal diarrhoea right now. ..

When the hell will I stop feeling tired. I need the time to study after work. But I am so so so tired to do anything. Argh!

And yes, my back still aches big time! F!

I need 48 hours a day!

I need 48 hours a day. And I hope I can survive with 3 hours of slp everyday... BAH! I have not been feeling energized enough for the whole day for a long long time alr! I need the zest and energy back!

I miss all those impromptu shopping trips w/o having to worry about anything and feeling guilty. I miss gg for karaoke session whenever my friends ask me for one. Fish! I need my life back! We live this life once and why am I torturing myself with studies! BAH!!!!

@ Work...

Sigh.. Feeling damn restless la... Why on earth I can never feel energetic? I think I have a rather good slp yesternight.. maybe not long enough? zzz~ -roar- I WANT TO SLP!

BYE~! This is just another random post...

Peektures....

Updates

I do wonder does anyone still read my blog, but tt's not really impt anyway....

Went to the IT fair with my ladies and we have lotsa laughter, again. Heh~ Am really glad my sis hit off well with them... Sigh... I wonder when will our next complete slumber be... But I guess it will never come, since too many factors to think of....

Celebrated qad's bdae last week. Once again, Happy belated bdae to you qad. May you see light in life and wont feel that 人生永远得那么痛苦！ hehe~ Hope you'll be happy always and may our dream come true, 7 yrs later. =)

Work have been rather routine. I am getting really sick of what I am doing and I am already having difficulty to see myself doing what I am doing right now in near future like, next yr? Times are bad. Can only take a step at a time. Like qad, I also hope tt 1 fine day I can lay my hands on 1 million buckeros then most of my problem will be solved....

Studies. BAD. I cant seems to study and I am like 1 month away from exams? Sigh. And ya, to put it in simpler words. I have not commence any proper revision yet. And I think I am gg to repeat tt history like how I fared for my Yr 1 Sem 1 exams in poly. How I wish I can earn a decent salary w/o having to study. This sucks.

I shall stop all my rantings.... I will post some pictures after this post. Till then, take care everyone!

Macdonalds

I kinda like studying at MacDonalds. It's kinda motivating and spur u on when u see many stranger comrades striving together with u. We shall all fight to win this battle! =)

其实。。。

其实我也在硬撑着。。。 看得出来吗？

好想快乐的过每一天，看似简单却一点也不容易。。。

生活中有那么多的未知数，要如何去掌控自己的生活中的点点滴滴还真的是一门学问。。。

也不想去理会别人对我的看法，不过我生来就特别在意外来对我的意见。要叫我如何不去理会？

老天爷啊，请赐我一枚人生指南针。。。 让我能看清楚我人生方向。。。 好吗？

I miss my life... back in poly....

I miss every single one of these people....

To lock or not to lock?

Am contemplating to lock up my blog. Nothing escape the eyes of Sg govt seriously. I've got nothing to hide nor do I felt that I've got anything interesting for others to probe. I am only hoping when I need a place to rant, this will be my 'ideal' place without me feeling 'unsafe'.

People, do leave me a message in msn or tagboard with your email (gmail pls....) so I can invite u to my blog. =)

Thanks!

Some Pictorial Recap...

Have not done any proper updates for the 1.5 months or so.... Shall do a pictorial posting. =D

Christmas Dinner @ 85 with my ladies!Finally got to meet these wonderful ladies! Cheerios to our >10yrs of friendship! A pity Mummy Annie is not in the pics though.... There'll always be another chance! ^_^

Lao Pa's 54th Birthday!

Dearest Lao Pa! Happy 54th birthday! I know you won't be reading my blog though. But I love u and mummy deep deep la. =p Nothing much but I just hope you'll be healthy and have a long long long and worry-free life!!! =)

Late Night Movie - Twilight

Dinner at this pasta joint by Sakae Sushi. Not bad. I kinda like the maggie-like pasta I had. Maybe we can hit the joint again soon. And that's Christmas, the carebear Jan brought along. So after the dinner + ice-cream at FEP, we headed for a late night movie! Heh... And something worth mentioning is, all of us watched Twilight before already. So it's like Ben, Jan and my 2nd time while the 3rd for Von! =p

Movie @ Lido again - Twilight againn...

Culprit for this silly decision is no doubt, BEN! But I enjoyed it la... Though I missed all my favourite scenes due to those vomitting episode... =( Nvm... Maybe we shall org a chalet this year and watched Twilight DVD together? Ladies ok? And err... Ben ok? Heh heh~ =p

* I am feeling so emo... Not Monday bluess... But work bluess..... =(

** Something is wrong. Very wrong. I shall slowly work my way out.

ASc CNY Gathering 2009

Had ASc CNY gathering yesterday and it's quite fun and nice to see these people again. It's a regret that we didn't manage to take photos at Roy's place and a group pic at Hazel's place. Nvm.. We shall do it next yr.

I shall let the photos do the talking. And yes, I shall see these people next year again. =)

R.I.P, Shin.

I've been following this blog, Shin's Cancer Blog.

I have to say she's really someone I admire for her courage. I do not know her, I just happened to bloghop to her blog and cant help but to feel so amazed by her strength to live. And not forgetting, Shin actually donated her body to Sg Medical Assoc for research purpose. 敬佩，敬佩！

Go on and read her blog... It will definitely set you thinking about life.

R.I.P, Shin. I am sure all angels will take care of you up in heaven. I also hope that medical technology will be even more advanced, to help all cancer patients.

Spree Spree Spree Away!

I have been spreeing a looooooooooooooot these days.... I'll be expecting my loots after cny.... And there'll be stuff from like.... 4 sprees? Woohoooo! I am so looking forward to lay my hands on my Majolica stuff! Cant believe how much Watson's is ripping for Majolica stuff! Ok la.. Not very expensive but still expensive than Taiwan and/or online la! -shakes head-

I am so gg to start a Torrid spree for my own..... Heh... Not many + size friends w/in my circle.. So this spree shall be for myself only. ^_^

And I am so gg to make my virgin order with VS! Pls make it a fuss free one!!!

This is a sooooooooo random post...zzz

K la.... Time for some serious updates....

Work:
Actually me and QAD know where the problem lies at for making us to feel so dreadry over work.... It's not that we only have 2 of us....It's not that we have a very bad sup.... She's pretty ok as compared to my previous sup @ e pharmacy.... But I guess it's just not our cup of tea... But yet, it seems really ok ... So now, I am practically passing day by day.... I guess I am not sick of this job. I am just sick of working... Never ever try to be a hero/heroine by saying you want to try and juggle school and work together.. It's tough. And when I say tough, it means VERY TOUGH. zzz~

School:
Disastrous. If I am clear all my subjs, I should really count my blessings.... Actually I kinda know how I will fare for my exams la... Shall make some backup plan....

Shall stop here..... Anyway~ HAPPY CNY TO ALL! ^_^