好想出国，透透气。。。

好累哦。。。 也好烦哦。。。 每一次上博客就发牢骚，喊累。。。 烦不烦啊。。。 ‘烦。。。。’

好想。。。 真的好想出国走一走。。。 觉得好闷， 快喘不过气来了。。。 算了。。。 大家，晚安。。。 zzzz~

Dread.

I am dreading work, so so so much again. Give me exams again anytime. I rather go thru the stress of mugging than facing all those shit back there.

=)

I miss those time back in tpy polyclinic. Monkey-ing around, nua-ing at my favourite corner. Volunteering to take orders for lunch, running away from dispensing slots, retail theraphy-ing @ retail, cashiering at retail, getting freebies from retails, treats from suppliers, complaining and bitching while at centre picking etc etc.... Those days were so much simpler..... =)

无名氏

好累... 好累...

Pictorials for ytd's meetup

Wooo.. I am having those monday blues again.... sickening la...

Anyway, met up with some of my favourite people ytd.. We shall go to Settlers again soon ya? =p So some pics to share! Gonna be image heavy... =p

Death...

My mind went wild thinking about lotsa stuff before I drift off to lalaland yester-night.

I came to conclude, I am afraid of death. As compared to my own death, I am even afraid of facing death of my loved ones. So, I am really scared of death. I cannot stand the thought of growing up and aging. I know the only constant that exist is changes. We all change, and death brought a stop to this change (to our own life that is.). So I really dont want to see people around me leaving, and not coming back anymore. I cant stand that thought as I age (ok, grow up... =p) Ok, I shall stop these morbidity. zzz

Exams. Ha! I think I am more or less confirm that I will need 4 years to graduate instead of 3 years. Looks like I will not be able to take convocation pics with my fellow uni-mates. That's kinda sad actually. The thought itself is like damn lonely already. I wouldnt say I am really ok at how I fared for the papers. I know I can do much better. However I really dont know what is pulling me back to do my best. Though I can say, I have already done what I can do. I cant help to keep feeling lethargic, restless. In addition, my mind is always in this constant state of saturation. So that sucks. Ok, I shall stop this nonsensical rambling too...

Alright, tmr's back to work. I am super duper dreading it. I really really really do not like what I am doing. But I really really really do not like the adapting phase when we change job. So tell me what can I do? And will I be able to get the same amount of remuneration is another thing. Sigh... If only my main worry isn't money.

To quote something my sis shared with me ytd, which she quoted from her Law lecturer. When money can solve the problem, it's not a problem. It's only a problem when it can't be solved by money. I find it very true. So I can only say, my main concern is money. Without money I cant do what I like. So in order to lessen that burden, I need to work. So it's not a problem. ok, I shall stop these 'i-think-its-philosophical' shit.

Shall stop blogging now. This seems like the longest post after a long long long long time. =p alrites, ciaoz!

Finally, over.

Exams are finally over. But I am dreading work on monday. Hate the feeling of waking up early in the morning, and then head out to do smth I dun like. This sucks, so much. Not much of the place & people, but 101% of the nature of work.

Let me have another round of 3 weeks pls. sigh....

S.P.D

LOVES!! =p

Dead

The feeling seems so familiar. I have it often back in poly. And I hate it so much. If only I do not have any monetary constraint, then I can have a larger PPF with more opportunistic cost. Sian.

122nd.

Can I don't go back to this place tomorrow? Sigh...


Monday Blues attack, again....

I know you're gg to read this...

What's with the big tyrant behaviour back at home, and the 'I'm ok with anything' behaviour when you're outside? Grow up! You're not gg to get your way just by throwing your temper around. Not only you're acting like a spoilt brat, you only display how bad disciplined you are. In any case, maybe no one will believe what I say, simply cuz how you're behaving back at home differ too much. What can I say?

And I shall repeat this again, by throwing your temper. Trashing it out by kicking all the things in your way, shouting and screaming + crying will NOT let you get your way. Not only you damages all the things that get in your way at home, you will only let others believe that by not letting you have your way is RIGHT. GROW UP.

19 days to go...

Anyone gg to repeat yr 1 with me? Sigh.... It felt like nothing goes into my head after I moved on to the next topic.... Like whatever I studied prior to what I am studying now is NOTHING. Shucks. Am I getting THAT old? Argh....

Unsuitable.

I am beginning to believe, I am not cut out to be;

- an achiever
- a high flyer

........................

Whats with people?

Whats with people getting so heated up over small little comments that meant nothing and chose to ignore the important things instead?

If I can be totally financially independent, and I can be totally heartless.. I really will leave this damn place. Damn...

I realise...

I am so different when I am outside, be it at work or with friends as compared to when I am alone at home...

This is bad....... I can only coop and hide inside this shell of mine....

I am so damn f*cking tired!

My back aches big time! Damn.... I am so damn tired and I wish I can go on a verbal diarrhoea right now. ..

When the hell will I stop feeling tired. I need the time to study after work. But I am so so so tired to do anything. Argh!

And yes, my back still aches big time! F!

I need 48 hours a day!

I need 48 hours a day. And I hope I can survive with 3 hours of slp everyday... BAH! I have not been feeling energized enough for the whole day for a long long time alr! I need the zest and energy back!

I miss all those impromptu shopping trips w/o having to worry about anything and feeling guilty. I miss gg for karaoke session whenever my friends ask me for one. Fish! I need my life back! We live this life once and why am I torturing myself with studies! BAH!!!!

@ Work...

Sigh.. Feeling damn restless la... Why on earth I can never feel energetic? I think I have a rather good slp yesternight.. maybe not long enough? zzz~ -roar- I WANT TO SLP!

BYE~! This is just another random post...

Peektures....

Updates

I do wonder does anyone still read my blog, but tt's not really impt anyway....

Went to the IT fair with my ladies and we have lotsa laughter, again. Heh~ Am really glad my sis hit off well with them... Sigh... I wonder when will our next complete slumber be... But I guess it will never come, since too many factors to think of....

Celebrated qad's bdae last week. Once again, Happy belated bdae to you qad. May you see light in life and wont feel that 人生永远得那么痛苦！ hehe~ Hope you'll be happy always and may our dream come true, 7 yrs later. =)

Work have been rather routine. I am getting really sick of what I am doing and I am already having difficulty to see myself doing what I am doing right now in near future like, next yr? Times are bad. Can only take a step at a time. Like qad, I also hope tt 1 fine day I can lay my hands on 1 million buckeros then most of my problem will be solved....

Studies. BAD. I cant seems to study and I am like 1 month away from exams? Sigh. And ya, to put it in simpler words. I have not commence any proper revision yet. And I think I am gg to repeat tt history like how I fared for my Yr 1 Sem 1 exams in poly. How I wish I can earn a decent salary w/o having to study. This sucks.

I shall stop all my rantings.... I will post some pictures after this post. Till then, take care everyone!