When life took a sharp turn...

Seems like pple around ain't really getting on well and fine... Can only hope/wish/pray that all will turn out to be good at the end of everything...

Work's still e same. Black sheep(s) here and there as usual. I can only say, empty vessels make the most noise. So think, before you speak. People will judge you by the messages you're conveying be it if that's your intention or not. Period.

Course briefing tmr, the fact that I am starting school soon is setting into me already. I am not feeling jittery but dreadry instead. Maybe I shld just kick the thought of wanting to resign in my mind and concentrate on other more important things. (LONG SERVICE AWARD!!! ^____^)

Am gonna stop here. Xing Guang Da Dao in a hour time. =D

I miss Taiwannnn~

I really miss Taiwan la... Nvm nvm... REN! I shall set my foot into Taiwan hopefully within the next 3 years time. (A lil too long, but I shall endure!)

Lemmingsssss

Lemmings Lemmings.... I need a new wallet anyway... Any kind generous soul out there?

WDNYYDDX (Figure it out yourself =P )

Heh heh... Had a dream last night... Still can remember vividly what happened. (there's this saying that if you can rmb your dreams vividly, it will not happen. I believe that will be the case too... =P ) Anyway its nice la.. LoL~ Funny yet impossible.. Heh heh.... Nvm... Shall be a secret for my own.... Tooooooo silly to be shared la... =X

Mood @ work have been rather good. Or maybe not good la. Just that I am more enthusiastic over drugs dispensing... Something is very wrong with me.. But oh wellll, it still beat being totally turn off-ed for dispensing right?

I guess my PMS period is over. 3 cheers for me pleaseeee. =D Guess its really one of the worse moodswings I ever had... Since its over, who cares! =D

And on a even happier note, I am gg for KBox, Kuishinbo session soon!! Say goodbye to money and hello to sinful happiness!! (^_^)

今天有一点high过头。其实有很多真经事要打出来的。 不过我想了想，觉得可能真的是我多心。所以也没去放在心上。过了就算了。因为。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 我是一个好人！！！！ =D

Is power de lor..

Since I am so bored here.. As its my lunch time now.. Let me show u guys some vids...






IS POWER DE LORRR.....

For a moment..

I hate this feeling I am having now...

Not pms-ing yet I felt like I am pms-ing...

Feeling very down yet I don't know the reason why....

Felt like talking to someone yet I don't want to talk...

Can I just make up my mind what I want? Urgh...

Ignore me..

Bloghopped~

"I realised that there are too many older people out there who think that those younger ones are just a bunch of kids who knows nothing. And is frustrating when this old people start giving you advices like you know nothing. And they are the ones who think too highly of themselves. Gosh! What's wrong with these people?"

Was bloghopping and I see this statement said by this particular person/blogger... It's so freaking true la.. This kinda pple exist everywhere! Just because they are older they will always think their opinions is right... WTH is gg on in their brain/mind? Does the number of years living on planet earth equates to how intelligent you will be? Even with high IQ, it will be as bad if you have nil EQ.

One eg of such person, that freaking p.cist at my workplace. But anyway, I have met a lot of people like this in my life so far. So what can I do when dealing with them? Can only be superficial. Smile, nod, agree and don't talk except for some response for the sake of not being so rude. ZZZ!~ This sucks la.... I am becoming so superficial. But come and think about it, I don't even bother to be 'polite' to the p.cist at my workplace. No point la... He will never get what I am saying anyway.

Ah, whatever. Back to youtube and my dinner.. Bye.

[9pm update: Jan, my 6th sense is right la... =) ]

Let us...

A moment of silence for those innocent lives lost in Myanmar & Sichuan, Chengdu.

I can't help but to really feel for the people there... sigh...

Hectic days ahead....

A bbq tmr.. a party on sat... Man.. I really hope my flu won't break out into a very bad one... (i really hate coughs, soure throat & runny nose!)

Have been doing a lot of thinking these days. Or rather reflection. Realise I could have treat the people around me with more sincerity... At times I find myself so superficial, which I can't even take it myself. I also find that I am rather self-centered. Yeah, I hope I can be a better person.

Been trying to be nice to everyone at work (except for that irritating 2, cant be bothered with them). With all the pleases, thank yous & sorrys. It can really get tiring at times when you know people around you is so particular about all these. Sometimes I can't help but to felt that these pleases and thank yous make the people interaction so shallow and prevent it from developing into something with more depth.

But a person's mind and thoughts are amazing isn't it? All of us is given the same things at birth. Maybe some are less fortunate with birth defects. However most of us being similar at birth, actually managed to 'morphed' into an individual so different from one another. Intellectual wise, looks wise, emotional wise etc... How can one mindset differ so much? How can 1 so empathetic with animals and 1 so cruel to throw kittens/puppies down from 12th storey etc etc... (just an example.. though i do know pple who throw cats down.... )

I do not know what set me to think about all these. I am rather perplexed by the complexity of human emotions. Those emotions is still the main culprit/driving force for us to do something good/bad isn't it? Isn't there a way for us to control how we feel? Like the remote control in the movie 'Click' that can rewind/fast forward the events of life... I would want a remote control to control one's emotion... for a good cause. =D

Anyway I shall stop here. Somehow or rather, I find my post very pointless and random. Right?

Bye....

(let me healthy asap, please. let my back, cough, sore throat, runny nose back to normal when i wakes up tmr. =D GYMM please... =D )

I want to....

I WANT TO TRAVEL LA!!!!!!!!!

I'm like... so not in the mood for work...

My RELC package is laying on my comp desk for sooooooooooooooooo long already and I have yet to open up and read through it....

I am feeling so so so so bored can!

Actually I have got some thoughts to pen it down.. But I am rather lazy to do so.. So I'll blog about it the next time when I have got the mood to do so...

Before I go, I just want to say...

SCREW ALL THOSE WHATSOEVER ACCREDITATION!!!! ZZZZZ

I am ok...

Alrite.. I am ok la... Back is still painful.. but at least there's no crack or fracture or anything.. Just that I fall hard and hit my bone quite hard too... =)

Things at home is extremely gloomy... I dont know how to let them know I am feeling lost, confused too... I guess they will never come to terms that I DO FEEL STRESSED UP BY THEIR MATTERS TOO...

As much as you want my comments, you all aint willing to listen. What you all expect from me?

When I say I shall care no more. What you all want, you all go decide yourself. Now I become the bad person. What you all want from me? What you all want me to say to you? Can just type out a script? I will just act out for you. I am feeling tired AS WELL.

If only they can read what I am typing here..

Of course I would hope that things can become MUCH better... But when both is not willing to listen. And both think their support (me) is not helping them and making them feel like unwanted in the family, things will not become better...

我真的不想管了。。。

I am ok, no worries. Guess I am done with my update. Ciaoz~

So contradicting..

I have been thinking of tking MC today.. However had decided that I should save up my MCs for the later part of the year... So I dunno if it's cuz QAD left Silkair, her MC curse is passed down to me or its just my luck...Guess its e latter... (QAD! Jk la.. hehe~)

Yesterday morning started off really bad with an extremely heavy rain... Were thinking of my really slippery sandals... Luckily my dad agreed to send me to the TP busstop... Then followed by massive jams despite the fact that I went out 15 mins earlier than usual, I reached tpy inter like 20 mins later than usual..

My 'glorious' arrival at the TPY inter is accompanied by a really nice fall on my back... Guess this fall really mark the worse slip/fall so far... The pain is... I dont know how to describe.... I can't sit at all can... Maybe I can, but the getting up part is really torturous.... My colleagues' guess is tt I had hurt my tailbone/spine.. dunno la... It still hurts..

Now I can't lie down. I cant sit... Alrite, not so bad.. I can sit n lie down.. Just that it isnt easy... I kept on waking up in e middle of the night due to the pain and discomfort... Now, as much as I wan to keng MC... I would rather to be at work now... Sigh..

And ya, I will be off to the polyclinic to see e Dr later... Not sure if I would need a X-ray... I seriously hope its nothing serious! Sigh.. Suay la....

I guess my last 36 bucks to survive till 25th will be depleted by today.. Bless me pls..

-outz-

Pondering...

It's a lazy Sunday.... The smoke from the joss sticks is really irritating me....My eyes that is...

Can't wait for Epi 19 to be screen tmr~

Am still considering whether to try for the position Von told me abt... Too many things to consider.. Of course for people who know me well have already given up hopes on me... I am too fickle minded alr... WOrry for too many things that is like not impt... Like what 1 of my colleague say, if I cont to think so much, I will definitely get the Long Service Award from NHG. (Provided I'm not being sacked la... =p)

The Annual Performance Appraisal is coming soon.. Not that I am very bothered by what my superiors gonna say about me. It's not gg to be positive anyway. I can even dream on for wanting a decent testimonial before I leave. However, I am more concern over the money I will get... Imagine if I get a C this year, I am only entitled to 0.25 of certain bonus components la... Sian... If only I do not need to worry so much on the finance for my studies....

Was talking to Regina regarding some issues on growing up... I guess its really like what I seen/heard from somwhere... A person emotion throughout the life is like a 'U' shape.... You start off high, feeling good with all attention being showered on you. And its gradually goes down the slope when responsibilites start to weigh down on our shoulders. Problems from friends, family, your loved one, work start to weigh our heart as well... As you grow older, your kids are grown up and started their own family, your burden then slowly got offloaded 1 by 1. Then you start to feel happier in the golden years of life.

However on 2nd thought, as you feel happier in the later part of life. Does it seems that your own responsibilities are being offloaded onto someone else shoulder? Then the whole vicious cycle continues.. Sigh...

As much as I rant, complain about anything or anyone in my life. I also cant imagine if anyone or any of such disappear from my life. Alright... I guess its more of the people...

So conclusion, thanks to anyone out there who have left their footprints in my life. Even if we are no longer friends, no longer talk to each other. I would hope that there will be 1 day we can still talk when we bump into each other on the streets. But as of now, I hope every single one of u is happy with their life.

And to those whom is still with me. I love all of you. =)

SIan de lor....

Sian Sian Sian!

I want to cut/trim my hair la....

I want to tidy up my room la....

I want to get MC for tmr la...

BUT....

TOO LAZY LA~

ARGH! Out...

Backdated Photo Blog

And I am back from a 3d2n chalet with my babes! Hehe~ It's a total R&R chalet retreat.. I guess almost everything is like impromptu.. Including the BBQ... haha~ Here goes... *BEWARE* Lotsa photos!

Introducing the long time ex-lab partners!

As me, Jan & Xiao Ben got too bored!
And in actual fact, Jan hates Ben!!!

As we got a lil bored during BBQ, we started playing with our cam!

And to prove QAD's fetish here... Haha~

And introducing Hao hao Mao Mao!!!! CUte eh!

On a side note, we had a karaoke session on 05042008... Hehe~ A worthwhile session, I guess we will be gg back to Chinatown for more KBox session? Sigh.. Have a craving for KBox again... ZZ~ Shall we go again soon? hehe~

Looking forward!

Chalet short getaway is coming! Can't wait la.. Need a breather badly!

TKA is ending in like 3 weeks time? SO SAD CAN!!

And ya, I am having mixed feelings about school now... Can't wait for it to start and can't wait for it to end too... Sigh

Out...

TKA Epi 17 synopsis (in Chinese)

第17集

在醫院裡，湘琴立志要當直樹的好幫手，熙恆醫生是直樹的指導醫生。但直樹卻比他受歡迎。

開刀時，湘琴當杜澤森的助手，狀況連連，不但怕看開刀還太過緊張把鉗子刺到杜澤森的手。這讓大家懷疑她的能力，湘琴也對自己失去信心。
一夜突然有車禍病患上門，直樹明知實習醫生不能開刀，但還是當機立斷要替病患開刀，在人員不足下要求湘琴當助手，湘琴臨危授命緊張萬分，也擔心著直樹的前途……

開刀時湘琴還是慌慌張張的，但在直樹帶領下，湘琴看見直樹的專業與專注，湘琴終於當了個稱職的護士。術後，湘琴對直樹讚嘆，這時直樹卻抱住湘琴，直樹這時才顯露出初次醫治重症病患的害怕。

由於直樹自行替病患開刀，醫院開懲處會議，直樹認為自己是為救病患沒錯，眼看就要懲處直樹，在門外偷聽的湘琴衝入替直樹說話，加上護士主任清水說情，肯定直樹的醫術，醫生們討論後決定只罰直樹寫悔過書。

裕樹找直樹談，問他怎麼會喜歡湘琴，直樹說自己可以做到世界上 90 ％的事，而剩下 10

％自己作不到的事，湘琴卻可以做到。直樹說裕樹對好美的心情就是在吃醋。
裕樹到好美學校門口等好美，與好美開誠布公說自己聽見好美說自己沒男友，好美說因為覺得自己不是裕樹女友才會這麼說，感覺不到裕樹喜歡她。裕樹吻好美，向好美告白，兩人正式交往。

直樹在醫院工作勞累，回到家還要看湘琴的看護計畫，沒有休息時間。
在醫院，阿金抱著燙傷的克莉絲汀要直樹醫治，阿金發現只要一有問題，直樹還是最值得依賴的人。

湘琴發現直樹工作繁忙，身心壓力大，但是身為妻子湘琴卻什麼也沒作，湘琴自責。於是湘琴精心料理便當，帶到醫院給直樹，卻從樓梯跌下，直樹護住湘琴而被壓傷昏迷，湘琴大驚。

急診室外，湘琴因使直樹受傷而焦急擔憂，後來才發現直樹是小腿骨折，昏迷是因為直樹缺少休息營養不足。湘琴自願負起責任照顧直樹，但湘琴的照料只是讓直樹更累，湘琴私下替直樹收下直樹的工作，偷偷替直樹分勞寫這些病歷報告，要讓直樹安靜休養。

湘琴也因為護士工作加上分擔直樹的工作，因而身體不適，終於在醫院昏倒，於是作了一次醫療諮詢。

其他醫師來質問直樹的病歷報告，直樹這時知道湘琴幫他作這些工作，直樹怪湘琴把事情作糟，湘琴泣訴自己的無能，但她的作為都是為了直樹好，直樹體認湘琴的用心，怪自己沒能力接好自己妻子才會受傷，這次住院讓他明白患者的心情與湘琴堅強的看護
…

GOSH GOSH! Yu shu and Hao mei offically together... Bah!!
And it's ending soon... Sian-ed.. Gonna have those withdrawal syntopms
again!! I
STILL CANT WAIT LA!!

I can't wait la!!!

CAN THEY KISS AGAIN EPISODE 17 BE UPLOADED NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mummy's Girl 是也！！

总觉得我好像是人家掌控着的傀儡。没有一丝自己的选择自由的余地。自己的自由也完全被掌控着。出去聚餐也得看脸色，也得撒个谎。这样下去，任何人都会累垮。

难道我现在不是为了自己而活吗? 感觉上我做的每一件事都是为了敷衍,应酬别人的意思和想法。 慢慢的,自己的自我与及思想也活活的被吞没了。

我也发现我正在承担的压力是完全我为了不要起争执而产生的。可是渐渐的, 又为了避开争执发生更多的口角。我又从没尝试过说出我的感受? 尝试了,换来的却是更多的冷言冷语。这也让我觉得其实我的存在会让人感到更不高兴。我知道这些想法是很傻, 不过如果你们也换个角度来看我的人生, 在何时我做的决定真的是为我自己想呢? 说多,事情更多。那又何必说出我到底想什么呢? 算了,就如我以前说过的,就让我在这属于我自己的私人空间法个牢骚吧... 我也会渐渐得学会如何处理自己的想法与及感受。

好累。。。

It get too tiring when you don't know why you're working so hard for...

It gets too tiring when no one appreciate.recognise but make u a scapegoat instead..

Sigh... My job rocks to e core la! I so love my job. I shall really aim for the long service award! My career goal shall be a Pharmacy Executive in 15 years time. ZZZ