Macdonalds

I kinda like studying at MacDonalds. It's kinda motivating and spur u on when u see many stranger comrades striving together with u. We shall all fight to win this battle! =)

其实。。。

其实我也在硬撑着。。。 看得出来吗？

好想快乐的过每一天，看似简单却一点也不容易。。。

生活中有那么多的未知数，要如何去掌控自己的生活中的点点滴滴还真的是一门学问。。。

也不想去理会别人对我的看法，不过我生来就特别在意外来对我的意见。要叫我如何不去理会？

老天爷啊，请赐我一枚人生指南针。。。 让我能看清楚我人生方向。。。 好吗？

I miss my life... back in poly....

I miss every single one of these people....

To lock or not to lock?

Am contemplating to lock up my blog. Nothing escape the eyes of Sg govt seriously. I've got nothing to hide nor do I felt that I've got anything interesting for others to probe. I am only hoping when I need a place to rant, this will be my 'ideal' place without me feeling 'unsafe'.

People, do leave me a message in msn or tagboard with your email (gmail pls....) so I can invite u to my blog. =)

Thanks!

Some Pictorial Recap...

Have not done any proper updates for the 1.5 months or so.... Shall do a pictorial posting. =D

Christmas Dinner @ 85 with my ladies!Finally got to meet these wonderful ladies! Cheerios to our >10yrs of friendship! A pity Mummy Annie is not in the pics though.... There'll always be another chance! ^_^

Lao Pa's 54th Birthday!

Dearest Lao Pa! Happy 54th birthday! I know you won't be reading my blog though. But I love u and mummy deep deep la. =p Nothing much but I just hope you'll be healthy and have a long long long and worry-free life!!! =)

Late Night Movie - Twilight

Dinner at this pasta joint by Sakae Sushi. Not bad. I kinda like the maggie-like pasta I had. Maybe we can hit the joint again soon. And that's Christmas, the carebear Jan brought along. So after the dinner + ice-cream at FEP, we headed for a late night movie! Heh... And something worth mentioning is, all of us watched Twilight before already. So it's like Ben, Jan and my 2nd time while the 3rd for Von! =p

Movie @ Lido again - Twilight againn...

Culprit for this silly decision is no doubt, BEN! But I enjoyed it la... Though I missed all my favourite scenes due to those vomitting episode... =( Nvm... Maybe we shall org a chalet this year and watched Twilight DVD together? Ladies ok? And err... Ben ok? Heh heh~ =p

* I am feeling so emo... Not Monday bluess... But work bluess..... =(

** Something is wrong. Very wrong. I shall slowly work my way out.

ASc CNY Gathering 2009

Had ASc CNY gathering yesterday and it's quite fun and nice to see these people again. It's a regret that we didn't manage to take photos at Roy's place and a group pic at Hazel's place. Nvm.. We shall do it next yr.

I shall let the photos do the talking. And yes, I shall see these people next year again. =)

R.I.P, Shin.

I've been following this blog, Shin's Cancer Blog.

I have to say she's really someone I admire for her courage. I do not know her, I just happened to bloghop to her blog and cant help but to feel so amazed by her strength to live. And not forgetting, Shin actually donated her body to Sg Medical Assoc for research purpose. 敬佩，敬佩！

Go on and read her blog... It will definitely set you thinking about life.

R.I.P, Shin. I am sure all angels will take care of you up in heaven. I also hope that medical technology will be even more advanced, to help all cancer patients.

Spree Spree Spree Away!

I have been spreeing a looooooooooooooot these days.... I'll be expecting my loots after cny.... And there'll be stuff from like.... 4 sprees? Woohoooo! I am so looking forward to lay my hands on my Majolica stuff! Cant believe how much Watson's is ripping for Majolica stuff! Ok la.. Not very expensive but still expensive than Taiwan and/or online la! -shakes head-

I am so gg to start a Torrid spree for my own..... Heh... Not many + size friends w/in my circle.. So this spree shall be for myself only. ^_^

And I am so gg to make my virgin order with VS! Pls make it a fuss free one!!!

This is a sooooooooo random post...zzz

K la.... Time for some serious updates....

Work:
Actually me and QAD know where the problem lies at for making us to feel so dreadry over work.... It's not that we only have 2 of us....It's not that we have a very bad sup.... She's pretty ok as compared to my previous sup @ e pharmacy.... But I guess it's just not our cup of tea... But yet, it seems really ok ... So now, I am practically passing day by day.... I guess I am not sick of this job. I am just sick of working... Never ever try to be a hero/heroine by saying you want to try and juggle school and work together.. It's tough. And when I say tough, it means VERY TOUGH. zzz~

School:
Disastrous. If I am clear all my subjs, I should really count my blessings.... Actually I kinda know how I will fare for my exams la... Shall make some backup plan....

Shall stop here..... Anyway~ HAPPY CNY TO ALL! ^_^

Post No: 102

Feeling: Really very tired and sticky~
Listening to: Nigakii Risa - Johnny He No Dengo

I guess the sping cleaning is coming to an end, like finally... Maybe with the final vaccuming and mopping of floor that's to be done tmr.... My room finally look a lil bit like a room. zzz

And ya, prelims date and exams dates are out. Time to get started.... So now I am seriously hoping that I will get started during my 1 week 'break'...

That's all for my very short update. Bye~

P/S: Jan, I sent your new friend picture to your email already. =D

Sian......

Exam dates is out alr....

This is bad.... Extremely bad.....

The 100th Post...

I very much want to do what I feel like doing...

I very much want to do something out of impulse (exclude impulse shopping)...

I very much want to follow my heart...

Can anyone out there allow me to do so without feeling guilty?

Happy 2009!

My current blog is officially 1 yr old... If I were to say how long I have been blogging... That will be around..... 6 yrs? Sigh... Old le la....

Let see, what did I achieved in 2008.... Maybe I can say...

1) Managed to curb myself from gg overseas with my really limited moola....(Or maybe it's restricted from travelling la...)

2) I finally left NHG. No regrets in leaving, but aint sure about me joining another statutory board. Maybe I am still in search of finding that suitable job for myself...

3) Finally started studying, which I also do not know if it's a right choice.. Suddenly I just felt that I should have just get that loan and get a degree in a yr or 1.5 yr... It's only a piece of paper anyway....

So now.... My 2009 resolution.... Even though I should say there isnt any point in setting any....

1) To know what I want

2) To pass all my papers. (I dont dare to dream of passing with flying colours lor....)

3) Pls let me enjoy the full course of my work.

4) Family be healthy and happy...

5) No problems with all relationships, be it friendships, kinship, colleagues etc....

6) Pls let me curb my spending habit. It's horrendous. I have not been able to save any money these 2 months... S

Alright... I shall stop here... Have to be realistic la.....

Alrites, HAPPY NEW YR PPLE!

And thanks a million who wished me happy birthday last yr! ^_^

Irony

It's funny how I am never able to seek solace at home.

I understand it now.....

Well, I am always the one that does not even consider the family a single bit all the time.

Yes, I am the selfish one. As always.

I am always the one, with the worst attitude ever.

Yes, I am always the one, with the worst character any daughter could have. Or simply, I am the worst daughter anyone can have.

Yes, I do not deny. There's no one in this universe can win me hands down being the most selfish, ugly, inconsiderate, ungrateful and useless individual anyone can be.

Thanks for reminding me all these once again. I will bear these in mind.

And also thank you for letting me know I am now a super individual who think so highly of myself cuz i earn some puny monies.

And yes, I will try my best. To have that 志气you're harping about on moving out. And once again, thank you very much from the bottom of my heart for letting me know who I am really.

I seriously can't thank you enough.

And no, this is not sacarsm.

So,

Thank you.

Sian ah....

Sigh, I dont have a single idea if I am liking what I am doing right now.... I just want to get pass this passing phase and break free from all these unseen restrictions....... Guess it's gg to be at least a tough 6 months ahead...... 一定要忍。。。。

Baaaaad...

Bad start..... Bad Day... Bad ending.... Sickening...

I missed being in the comfort zone... I missed being one of the more experienced staff.... BUT, I dont want to go back to the pharmacy...

Passing phase.... passing phase.... Shall not let myself rot in this 'comfort zone' whirlpool anymore.. Time to get back on my feet and get on moving... Ganbatte!

Care no more..

Shall just let it down.. and not let it affect me any longer. It may all just my one sided thoughts...

Things aside.... Kymmie & Joe got married in MS ytd! ^_^

And ya, things have been gg on well for work.... Am gg solo soon... So I can expect things to go downhill pretty soon. =( Wish me luck! byebye~

Changes...

I cant help but to feel there're too many changes for me to cope recently. Maybe in totality, all were nothing but my own doings. Why should I care so much when it doesnt even concern me at all? It's their lives not mine. 犯溅。。。

I am starting to tolerate nonsense (IMO) no more. Call me an old woman with stupind thinking, but why am I transforming into a petty individual which I find it a monsterous self? Changes.....

But yet those changes I see which I cant tolerate is wrong by integrity, character. So are all those feelings I have now redundant?

I am getting so frustrated by all those small lilttle things that I ususally choose to be blind to.... Maybe, and I hope.... all these are just the bad doings of the female homo sapiens' hormones...

I guess I am falling sick...... in mind.....

Brand New Start..

Finally have got the mood to blog.... Well well.... Have been having lotsa mixed feelings..

Work wise. So far so good. Am blessed enough to have Von with me... Guess I will always be stoning at one corner and be like a hermit crab if I am to be alone... But at least for now, everything's quite ok... 'Cept for the tonnes of information to be digested. Gg to school after a whole day training can be really bad....


School, have been habouring the thought of giving up these 2 weeks. And I know I cant.. This is so sickening... Sigh...

I want my honeymoon period back again la...... =( But work is not the main culprit for making me not want to work. It's school... Sigh....

Last Day of Freedom...

Alrite.. Damn emo now la...

My last day of 'leave' without the need of AL is coming to an end! Damn emo can!

Having a serious wardrobe crisis now. =( Anyway want to send me a US based credit card? ^_^

Sigh... Can I dont go work tmr? =p