PPF. Limitations.

I felt like I am being bounded by so many restrictions.

I think I have an idea what I want to do in the future. Yet I cant go ahead to start what I want to do.

I think I have a slight idea what I want to pursue. Yet I do not have the courage and money to do so.

I think I need to move on and do something that will be beneficial to my future. Yet I am still stuck as a half civil servant.

I think I am too timid. Care too much over how people look at me. Worry too much over the 'what ifs'. I am my own limit. Yet I cant overcome it. One Word.

Useless.

Haiz...

Ultimate dreadz...

Sians...

On the other hand, I can't wait for 29th Aug. Though I dont know what to expect. Bah.

Outta here, bye.

I'm in class right now... and my lecturer is still talking nonsense... god knows how much longer is he going to take before he start e lesson proper... so much for telling us we do not have enough time for e whole syllabus. zzz...

today's a really bad day... e urge to give up and move on is so strong... yet i can't do anything about it. it sucks having to rant about e same things over and over again... but please pardon me as this is really e only outlet i have... :(

guess i really should start listening in class... thank goodness i do not need to entertain any idiotic people for e next 2 days.... sigh... aaback to my lesson... bye ...

Watch this...

After coming close to 2 years....

I am finally gg for a holidays soon! Yipee!!! I love impromptu happenings (good ones only pls)! Yipeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Home alone ep 2...

Jan's back home.... So i spent the night alone ytd.... Heh~ Think the webcam-ing at night help to ease e uneasyness a lil... Not so bad... Think I am really falling sick le... Sian ah....

Now I am wishing that I need not go back to work.... And if I go back to work, pls let me settle ah chang's case asap.... this case really headache. Haiz....

In conclusion, I dont want to work..

Family Photo... =p

Latest family photo.. =P

We make it!

Yay! =) Crust is a lil tad sweet though.. Now I want to bake a proper cake the next time.. Time to buy the necessary items and equiments! =D

Home alone...

I think for now still can survive the thought of being home alone... Not till next week comes.... I will definitely hate it.. If only I can go Taipei too......

Not good.

To be truthful, I don't feel good about it. Yet, no one owes me a living. Why should I feel so affected? No one is answerable to me in whatever they do or decide. Why am I still so affected? Nah, I think I am fine. I know what went wrong, what is the problem. But you still can't stop me from feeling this way. Sigh, if only I can be more...... nvm... As if things will change if i list everything out clearly. This is so f*ckening frustrating. Don't correct my english, my english have never been good. It have just reached the cui-ed stage. zzz~

Ok, nuff said. I just want everything to sail through smoothly. And yes, I can do it. I must do it. I do not have a choice...

I am so dreading that 1 week of home alone..... =S

Shit

I am still v v v v v v v v v v stressed up la... ARGH!

好想出国，透透气。。。

好累哦。。。 也好烦哦。。。 每一次上博客就发牢骚，喊累。。。 烦不烦啊。。。 ‘烦。。。。’

好想。。。 真的好想出国走一走。。。 觉得好闷， 快喘不过气来了。。。 算了。。。 大家，晚安。。。 zzzz~

Dread.

I am dreading work, so so so much again. Give me exams again anytime. I rather go thru the stress of mugging than facing all those shit back there.

=)

I miss those time back in tpy polyclinic. Monkey-ing around, nua-ing at my favourite corner. Volunteering to take orders for lunch, running away from dispensing slots, retail theraphy-ing @ retail, cashiering at retail, getting freebies from retails, treats from suppliers, complaining and bitching while at centre picking etc etc.... Those days were so much simpler..... =)

无名氏

好累... 好累...

Pictorials for ytd's meetup

Wooo.. I am having those monday blues again.... sickening la...

Anyway, met up with some of my favourite people ytd.. We shall go to Settlers again soon ya? =p So some pics to share! Gonna be image heavy... =p

Death...

My mind went wild thinking about lotsa stuff before I drift off to lalaland yester-night.

I came to conclude, I am afraid of death. As compared to my own death, I am even afraid of facing death of my loved ones. So, I am really scared of death. I cannot stand the thought of growing up and aging. I know the only constant that exist is changes. We all change, and death brought a stop to this change (to our own life that is.). So I really dont want to see people around me leaving, and not coming back anymore. I cant stand that thought as I age (ok, grow up... =p) Ok, I shall stop these morbidity. zzz

Exams. Ha! I think I am more or less confirm that I will need 4 years to graduate instead of 3 years. Looks like I will not be able to take convocation pics with my fellow uni-mates. That's kinda sad actually. The thought itself is like damn lonely already. I wouldnt say I am really ok at how I fared for the papers. I know I can do much better. However I really dont know what is pulling me back to do my best. Though I can say, I have already done what I can do. I cant help to keep feeling lethargic, restless. In addition, my mind is always in this constant state of saturation. So that sucks. Ok, I shall stop this nonsensical rambling too...

Alright, tmr's back to work. I am super duper dreading it. I really really really do not like what I am doing. But I really really really do not like the adapting phase when we change job. So tell me what can I do? And will I be able to get the same amount of remuneration is another thing. Sigh... If only my main worry isn't money.

To quote something my sis shared with me ytd, which she quoted from her Law lecturer. When money can solve the problem, it's not a problem. It's only a problem when it can't be solved by money. I find it very true. So I can only say, my main concern is money. Without money I cant do what I like. So in order to lessen that burden, I need to work. So it's not a problem. ok, I shall stop these 'i-think-its-philosophical' shit.

Shall stop blogging now. This seems like the longest post after a long long long long time. =p alrites, ciaoz!

Finally, over.

Exams are finally over. But I am dreading work on monday. Hate the feeling of waking up early in the morning, and then head out to do smth I dun like. This sucks, so much. Not much of the place & people, but 101% of the nature of work.

Let me have another round of 3 weeks pls. sigh....

S.P.D

LOVES!! =p

Dead

The feeling seems so familiar. I have it often back in poly. And I hate it so much. If only I do not have any monetary constraint, then I can have a larger PPF with more opportunistic cost. Sian.