122nd.

Can I don't go back to this place tomorrow? Sigh...


Monday Blues attack, again....

I know you're gg to read this...

What's with the big tyrant behaviour back at home, and the 'I'm ok with anything' behaviour when you're outside? Grow up! You're not gg to get your way just by throwing your temper around. Not only you're acting like a spoilt brat, you only display how bad disciplined you are. In any case, maybe no one will believe what I say, simply cuz how you're behaving back at home differ too much. What can I say?

And I shall repeat this again, by throwing your temper. Trashing it out by kicking all the things in your way, shouting and screaming + crying will NOT let you get your way. Not only you damages all the things that get in your way at home, you will only let others believe that by not letting you have your way is RIGHT. GROW UP.

19 days to go...

Anyone gg to repeat yr 1 with me? Sigh.... It felt like nothing goes into my head after I moved on to the next topic.... Like whatever I studied prior to what I am studying now is NOTHING. Shucks. Am I getting THAT old? Argh....

Unsuitable.

I am beginning to believe, I am not cut out to be;

- an achiever
- a high flyer

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Whats with people?

Whats with people getting so heated up over small little comments that meant nothing and chose to ignore the important things instead?

If I can be totally financially independent, and I can be totally heartless.. I really will leave this damn place. Damn...

I realise...

I am so different when I am outside, be it at work or with friends as compared to when I am alone at home...

This is bad....... I can only coop and hide inside this shell of mine....

I am so damn f*cking tired!

My back aches big time! Damn.... I am so damn tired and I wish I can go on a verbal diarrhoea right now. ..

When the hell will I stop feeling tired. I need the time to study after work. But I am so so so tired to do anything. Argh!

And yes, my back still aches big time! F!

I need 48 hours a day!

I need 48 hours a day. And I hope I can survive with 3 hours of slp everyday... BAH! I have not been feeling energized enough for the whole day for a long long time alr! I need the zest and energy back!

I miss all those impromptu shopping trips w/o having to worry about anything and feeling guilty. I miss gg for karaoke session whenever my friends ask me for one. Fish! I need my life back! We live this life once and why am I torturing myself with studies! BAH!!!!