It struck me hard...

Today I saw one of the patient that I really dread serving... It had been some time since she came.... She used to 'patronise' the clinic at least once a week or once every 2 weeks....

She used to trouble the PSAs by having to cancel her bill everytime she forgot to request for the medications she want...

She used to irritate the doctors by making them amending her prescription several times.. Because she just can't seem to remember what she want and tell the doctor at one go...

She used to irritate the hell out of me because she have got lotsa questions and can't seems to remember what I told her... And she will ask the same question over again and again...

I always 'bully' her by asking to go find the doctor herself to add the medications.. (This is SOP-right). I didnt offer to call the doctor to request the medications on her behalf before.... (We are not really allowed to do this... unless there's no other alternatives - nasty patients...)

I never help her to write the indications and instructions willingly on her medications label because she always ask the same old question....

Today she came....

No longer with her umbrella, no longer speaking in that loud and strong voice.... no longer staring at me/other pts with that big eyes....

She sat on her wheelchair that seems pretty new.... Eyes were half closed, can't really hear, can't really pay attention....

Her son seems to be more 'obedient' as he no longer argue with her in the pharmacy... No longer scolding her saying she's so troublesome... Instead, he stayed with her and offer to listen to our drugs dispensing.... And make her listen as well....

I also willingly to dispense with my really broken hokkien for the very first time... Sad isn't it... (I hate to dispense in hokkien, fyi...)

I still remember how she say she need to rush back home to cook dinner.... That's like 6 mths ago?

She look so weak and frail today... I didnt cry nor I tear... But I almost did.... My heart wrench at the sight of her.... She's around 80+ - 90 y/o... Though she can be deem as healthy at her age... But I cant help but to feel really sad when I see the change in her within these 2 years....

Somehow, I was thinking... Will her son be very helpless if ever 1 day Mdm SST left.... It seems like both of them depend on each other a lot....

I really cannot imagine... My own parents becoming like her in the future.... I cant imagine myself becoming like her in the future.....

And it is also today.... I understand the reason why I am still 'lingering' in NHG Pharm.

I hope I can let the other old folks out there to age more 'comfortably'. They may be down with several chronic diseases... They maybe feeling weak and helpless... But somehow when we, the service staff in healthcare shows that we do care and willing to help them... They will feel happier....

They may complain, they may scream at us saying how slow are we.... But they're still the patients...

Of course, there're black sheeps out there that criticise us when we do our job.... But there're also people who appreciate what we do (though they're the minority...)....

This incident did not rekindle the so called 'passion' and 'compassion' in me to stay on in healthcare frontline....

It made me realise, I will still hope I am able help whenever I can.... I will also take pride in what I do even if I detest doing it....

And this afternoon, I did my best in clearing patients... Giving them the clearest instructions I can give... Only to hope all their diseases can be lifted and be free from these illnesses....

So, please give me the strength to face it. Human will age and die... Please do give me the patience, to serve all patients with pride and empathy...

And last but not least, all people to be appreciative to give me that support and encouragement to stay on with the other frontline staff to help whatever we can...

Jia you... =)

I miss life in TP, badly...

I went to have a campus tour of TP this evening, alone...

I missed school life in TP so badly...

It was so much fun as compared to secondary school days...

And I am pretty sure it will be better than my upcoming p/t school life too...




Why do we have to grow up? Sigh....

My deepest condolences...

My deepest condolences to the 2 NSF who passed away on Tues and Wed respectively.

Got to know the regular (Pilot Trainee) whom passed away on Wed is the bf of a ASc jr and my friend's friend... Felt pretty sad by the news actually.. Hope she and the family will picked themself up asap...

And also, got to know a TP BMS(PST I think) senior who is in the batch before me passed away due to fever caused by viral infection. (Or purely viral infection?) earlier on this week. Don't know her personally but got to know about her thru Flowerpod earlier last yr. And she's only 24 this year. Sigh... Her last post in FP also says that she's down with a fever caused by viral infection. And who knows for the following day or 2, shes in ICU alr... Life's so unpredictable....

I really can't imagine anyone close/dear to me goe someday... Please please please be well and healthy and don't leave any people you love behind.

And as for me, I think I have become more paranoid. Things like 'What happen if I just die like that' actually set me to deep thinking mode recently...

Life's really fragile and unpredictable.. People, please do show the love you have for the people surrounding you while you can...

If ever 1 day I am gone, please please please help me tell my father & mother, I truly love the both of them....

I want to travel too!

Alrite.. Sis is gg to HKG next mth...

Sze Hui is planning for a Japan trip next yr....

When will my next overseas trip come?!?!?!??!!

Seriously, I think chance of my gg overseas next yr June is like.. 50% 50% only... SIGH!

Gek Sim Ah...

Just when I am looking thru HWZ earlier on, then I came across this article posted online...

UniSIM launches first local university part-time accountancy degree in collaboration with five public accounting firms

(http://www.unisim.edu.sg/uni/pub/gen/uni_pub_gen_content.cfm?mnuid=61&id=3496)

HO SEH BO!

Let me recap the reason why I did not choose UniSIM over SIM-UOL earlier on.

1. No Direct Honours/Honours
2. Course fee as expensive as compared to SIM Global Education
3. No accountancy. There's finance, but not really what I want to try.

Now? They're starting a degree program - Bacherlor of Accountancy (Hons). With 40% subsidy and industrial internship. GEK SIM AH!

And what, UniSIM accountancy will be studying FRS (Financial Reporting Standard) under SIngapore Standard. SIM-UOL will be studying FRS under UK standard....

AND WHAT'S MORE! UniSIM's Accountancy is awaiting accreditation from ACCA & ICPAS (Singapore Official Body for CPA - Certified Public Accountant). SIM-UOL A&F grads will need to go through with ACCA level 3 examinations or ICPAS professional examinations again before we can be a CPA in 3 years time. And in order to take ACCA level 3 exams and/or ICPAS professional exams, I must take certain modules in SIM-UOL. Sian not?!

And I think there's a high chance for UniSIM's application for accreditation to be approved since the 5 firms cooperating with them is pretty prestigious, considering that 1 of the Big 4 auditing firm - KPMG is one of the partners.

Haiz... Suan le....Let me be gek sim a bit more.... Then I need to get ready for school already.

SIAN AH~!

原来我什么都不想要。。。

没了。。。 放手了。。。心情也轻松起来了。。。 想回去，自己也很不踏实。。。 既然都是过去事了，就让我们往前看吧。。。 =）

School will officially starts on the 8th July for me. Not looking forward. So many people out there is telling me how tough it will be. How I will not cope with a full time job and school. How I will definitely suffer. Thank people, I understand all of you is trying to prepare me for what is coming, actually I don't need so much of all these constant reminders for now. All I need is you all to be there (maybe for a K session? =P ) if ever 1 day I really can't take the stress anymore.

And for the people who have been telling me I am not a material for studying, and I am not supposed to be so infilial to continue studying. I should be working and provide for my parents. Thank you too. You/Both of you have been a great help. You've let me realise how infilial, irresponsible and selfish I am. However I have got my own plannings. And coming from a not-so-well-to-do family should not deprive me the chance to study right? Why should a degree programe be catered to the rich ones only? Furthermore, I am providing for my own degree. I am still contributing to my household expenditures. I am still trying to fulfil the filial piety duties as much as I can. So can you (2) please leave some space for me? I am trying, really. I know I am really selfish to only think of myself. But all I want is a passport for me to search a better paying job to provide for my folks and myself. I hope I am not wrong holding on to this thought. So for the time being, please get off my back. And let me live my life as my own. I don't need your judgement for now, and maybe even in the future. I hereby sincerely thank you in advance.

Haiz~

I drank 3 cups of green tea already... And I am still feeling sleepy... And no, no coffee for me... =)

And, I am so tempted to start my stationary shopping!!

And QAD, I hope all goes on well for you. And I really hope 1 day nothing could stop us and just let us leave the shithole we're in now. =)

*Joanna, today your aunt actually asked me if I know u.. haha~ Anyway if she say my attitude not very good... Tell her to pardon me ah... Met a few of nasty patients just before her.. LoL~ And in any case, how did she recognise me? Don't tell me you told her 'very easy to recognise one... the big big round round jiu shi le....' =X hahaha~

It's a steal!

I finally got both a scanner & printer that can work!!! Hehe.. its those kinda all-in-one kinda printer/scanner la.... And I got it @ $88!!! What a steal! But I am $88 poorer now.. Can't wait for my next paycheck on the 28th JUNE la.... Sigh...