Irony

It's funny how I am never able to seek solace at home.

I understand it now.....

Well, I am always the one that does not even consider the family a single bit all the time.

Yes, I am the selfish one. As always.

I am always the one, with the worst attitude ever.

Yes, I am always the one, with the worst character any daughter could have. Or simply, I am the worst daughter anyone can have.

Yes, I do not deny. There's no one in this universe can win me hands down being the most selfish, ugly, inconsiderate, ungrateful and useless individual anyone can be.

Thanks for reminding me all these once again. I will bear these in mind.

And also thank you for letting me know I am now a super individual who think so highly of myself cuz i earn some puny monies.

And yes, I will try my best. To have that 志气you're harping about on moving out. And once again, thank you very much from the bottom of my heart for letting me know who I am really.

I seriously can't thank you enough.

And no, this is not sacarsm.

So,

Thank you.

Sian ah....

Sigh, I dont have a single idea if I am liking what I am doing right now.... I just want to get pass this passing phase and break free from all these unseen restrictions....... Guess it's gg to be at least a tough 6 months ahead...... 一定要忍。。。。

Baaaaad...

Bad start..... Bad Day... Bad ending.... Sickening...

I missed being in the comfort zone... I missed being one of the more experienced staff.... BUT, I dont want to go back to the pharmacy...

Passing phase.... passing phase.... Shall not let myself rot in this 'comfort zone' whirlpool anymore.. Time to get back on my feet and get on moving... Ganbatte!

Care no more..

Shall just let it down.. and not let it affect me any longer. It may all just my one sided thoughts...

Things aside.... Kymmie & Joe got married in MS ytd! ^_^

And ya, things have been gg on well for work.... Am gg solo soon... So I can expect things to go downhill pretty soon. =( Wish me luck! byebye~

Changes...

I cant help but to feel there're too many changes for me to cope recently. Maybe in totality, all were nothing but my own doings. Why should I care so much when it doesnt even concern me at all? It's their lives not mine. 犯溅。。。

I am starting to tolerate nonsense (IMO) no more. Call me an old woman with stupind thinking, but why am I transforming into a petty individual which I find it a monsterous self? Changes.....

But yet those changes I see which I cant tolerate is wrong by integrity, character. So are all those feelings I have now redundant?

I am getting so frustrated by all those small lilttle things that I ususally choose to be blind to.... Maybe, and I hope.... all these are just the bad doings of the female homo sapiens' hormones...

I guess I am falling sick...... in mind.....

Brand New Start..

Finally have got the mood to blog.... Well well.... Have been having lotsa mixed feelings..

Work wise. So far so good. Am blessed enough to have Von with me... Guess I will always be stoning at one corner and be like a hermit crab if I am to be alone... But at least for now, everything's quite ok... 'Cept for the tonnes of information to be digested. Gg to school after a whole day training can be really bad....


School, have been habouring the thought of giving up these 2 weeks. And I know I cant.. This is so sickening... Sigh...

I want my honeymoon period back again la...... =( But work is not the main culprit for making me not want to work. It's school... Sigh....

Last Day of Freedom...

Alrite.. Damn emo now la...

My last day of 'leave' without the need of AL is coming to an end! Damn emo can!

Having a serious wardrobe crisis now. =( Anyway want to send me a US based credit card? ^_^

Sigh... Can I dont go work tmr? =p

下雨天

下雨天

作詞：梁心頤 作曲：張傑

下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你
我不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沈默的場景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

沙滩。。。

Feeling very.... blue........

Don't like the feeling of being helpless. =(

My break at last..

I am finally on a continuous break for at least 5 days.. To be exact, I have got 16 days of break before embarking on my new job. ^_^ So for now.... 15 more days of break left... Time.. please crawl.. for once... =P

I am hoping that I can get down to study during this short/long break.But seems like MS is e main distraction! Sigh... And lets see what I want to do....

- Ding Tai Fung please!! Craving for it for like dunno how long alr!
- Kbox! Shall wait till I fully recover...
- Shopping! Wardrobe crisis for my new job... And this wil be e most difficult task to complete..
- Kuishinbo! Cravings.. Cravings...
- Make my specs! I hate to squint my eyes during lectures!
- Clean up my room - I had started ytd by cleaning up my study table! ^_^
- Level 90 in MS! POssible? No? I dunno la... =p

Alrite... Think I might want to login MS awhile... BYEBYE!

i love chocs. =)

hehe... am savouring on the merci chocs dr ng bought of the clinic staff since he is leaving soon. gosh. the last time i had merci chocs shld be on jai's 21st bdae celeb la.. which is like on the 4th nov 2006 (5th nov 2006 mn). i misses those times....badly... =)

time crawls at work.... having mixed feelings towards everything now. but am sure it's not the wrong choice. =)

met up with my poly sisters (and ya, ben you're counted as 1 of the sisters =p) recently. enjoyed the meetup and think we shld have more of such meetups maybe with ai qin too. =)

i am so looking forward to my 2 weeks break. and no, i am not gg to travel to some corner of the world. i am so hoping that i can get my butt and mind off to some serious mugging. wish me luck... just hope maplestory server will be down... down... down.... =p

alrites. back to my lunch break. till then, bye.

S.P.E.E.D!

Ok.. This is a news I got to know like last month... But keep forgetting to blog it out...

My all time fave is BACK!!!

Woohoo~~~ I am so gg to buy their new single.... Please support Ashita no Sora! Arigatou Gozaimasu!! ^_^

Time of a proper update..

Orite... Time for a proper update...

Basically I no longer qualify for LSA which i always 'wanted' @ NHG...

Health status a question mark still.. Though am pretty sure I am orite... =)

Things at home... Ok la.. Dont know what to say... Those nitty gritty details are too much for me to repeat them again and again... Learnt to get over it and just hope everything will be alrite... whatever that may happen, will happen. No matter what I do to stop it from coming...

1 very impt point to note. Always try to live for yourself even though we know we're constantly living for others. =)

idunnohowtogoon...

Too many things happened recently that really make my mind into one big whirlpool... aint feeling good about all the single little things... all i can do is to pray for all to be well.. and may everything be smooth sailing for me... this is getting too tiring....

sick and tired of everything..

frustration to the max... sick and tired man.... fuck la..

moving on.... moving on.....

Finally have gotten the chance to move on... But yet I am having so much mixed feelings... Will update again on this matter after everything is confirmed. Till then... Byebye~

CMI... Really CMI...

Totally exploited....

it gets too...

it gets too monotonous and boring after we're in something for too long right? this is a very pointless & random post. am at counter 1 now and i am so dreading the work for the day to start... save me ah.....

好累。。。

觉得自己好像快要崩溃了。。。