顿时间，我感觉不到我的存在意义了。。。

有时真地会觉得，不知道自己的存在是为了什么。就觉得自己好像一个空壳。盲目的追求物质上的好。连我为什么要继续课业的理由都不懂了。 不知道是不是自己想太多， 就总觉得自己在做的一切很不世纪。感觉就好像我很盲目的在追求我在做的一切。算了。。。 顺其自然吧。。。

JCIA...

JCI audit is over for my place... Well, I find it rather... nvm....

We spent countless afternoons gg thru those mock audits.... Made lotsa effort to clean up this and that.... We cant eat in the pharmacy for so long... Just for tt < 10mins walk ard by the angmo.... -shake head-

Not forgetting the stress factor that could push your BP to 200/180. F!

To add on to those problems.... Studies have been getting really tedious, mentally... The fatigue is really starting to take its toll on me. I am totally dreading work. And I cant concentrate in class after 30 mins... Haiz... Alrite, I cant complain much for this, I brought it upon myself....

Maths test tmr... I am still procrastinating.. Have got no energy to study! < 6 hours of sleep everyday, and < 5 hours of sleep on school days is really very torturing.... I really wish to find a decent 5 days job soon.... If only I can just dont work for this 3 years (Dream on!)

Wish me luck, I am gg to try mug later on @ 10pm... ZZZ~

I'm a studious kid...

I love studying at TP lib.... Maybe I will love studying in SIM lib too.. But SIM is simply too faaaaaar.... And ya... I am a studious kid. =D

MC-ed

MC-ed. Need the time to study for my Maths test. Even though I foresee myself to flunk big time. Wish me good luck.

I want this phone!!!

Nostalagia....

I went back to TP for a studying session, it felt great to be back in TP (even if it's for awhile...) And of course, the studying session is 75% fruitful.. Except for the occasional chit chatting... lame jokes and bouts of tension headache attacks, I really did study ok! =D

Well, used up 1.5 days of my AL this week and I am left with 2 days only.. Seriously I dont know how to survive.. As much as I want to leave my current workplace, I guess I will be staying throughout this year. Forget it....

I was pondering on some changes I noticed recently. Mainly on people... It's sad when u realise u cant relate as much to someone who usd to be so dear anymore right? You noticed the change is so big that sometimes you can't recognise the person infront of you used to be your confidante. And when I mean the big change, its something for the worst imo. And what make it worse, I dont know how to tell the person neither do the person know he/she had changed that much. Well, maybe nothing ever changes... Just that I am being too paranoid, sensitive. Or maybe just that the person is still the same, just that I have never notice those traits all these years I know him/her. Sad la...

I hope I can get on track for my revision later on. As much as I hate maths, I do start to feel that it may get a lil exciting when I attempt those alien questions. Wish me luck for maths, and stats. =)

I set my foot into...

I set my foot into Sentosa today....

And ended up a roasted pig... ZZZ...

This aside.. Let me introduce you to my very 'hip' parents... That's my mum playing my Nintendo DS Lite and My father playing my sis PSP Slim... Damn 'hip' la!

Aiyo....

I am so tempted can.....

I read through the student handbook that I received along with my study guides ytd.... (This yr UOL seems to be more efficient... as what pple in e forum say la...)

And I saw this section on Summer School...

Tempting tempting!!

Course fees for 1 session (20days) - 1125pounds -> bound to be increase for next yr...

Accomodation for 1 session... - differ for different residences and room type... If lets say I am gg to share a rm with another person, it will come up to about 700pounds per person...

The air tix.... Will come up to about 2k...

Expenses... I dont know about the expenses there... But lets say I put 2000 for approx 3 weeks (frankly speaking... I think its defintely not enough...)

Then it will come up to approx 10k can!

Any kind soul want to donate some money to me? I want to go for summer school la!!!

I hate this...

I dont understand how can one be so irresponsible...

Y make others feel stressful and worried on their behalf when its their own life?

My silence does not means I don't care. But I am freaking tired to show my displease already. I really dont understand why a grown up like you can be more mature? Instead always getting stuck in your own world thinking that you;re the only one whose really sick and tired of everything.. You're the one suffering the most. C'mon! Spare a thought on how the people around u feel too!

I dont know why.. But you no longer command that kinda respect I used to have already...

Shucks...I want to get out of this phase asap.

i neeed a breaaaak~

As I was flipping the papers today (MyPapers).... Japan is said to be one of the tourist destination this year due to the weak Yen! Can I go???????????? SIgh... I seriously need a break la...

School's seriously draining me... I may be able to give my 101% of attention in class, but the moment I reached home.. I am like concuss-ed~ And the work for the following day will be disastrous.... I seriously hope this is an adapting phase only....

I am gg for a K session tmr!!! Like finally la.... But I am like having some sore throat? Heck la.... I want to spend money!!!! I want to go travelling!!!

Taiwan!!! I am so missing u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!