Alrite.. I am ok la... Back is still painful.. but at least there's no crack or fracture or anything.. Just that I fall hard and hit my bone quite hard too... =)
Things at home is extremely gloomy... I dont know how to let them know I am feeling lost, confused too... I guess they will never come to terms that I DO FEEL STRESSED UP BY THEIR MATTERS TOO...
As much as you want my comments, you all aint willing to listen. What you all expect from me?
When I say I shall care no more. What you all want, you all go decide yourself. Now I become the bad person. What you all want from me? What you all want me to say to you? Can just type out a script? I will just act out for you. I am feeling tired AS WELL.
If only they can read what I am typing here..
Of course I would hope that things can become MUCH better... But when both is not willing to listen. And both think their support (me) is not helping them and making them feel like unwanted in the family, things will not become better...
我真的不想管了。。。
I am ok, no worries. Guess I am done with my update. Ciaoz~
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
So contradicting..
I have been thinking of tking MC today.. However had decided that I should save up my MCs for the later part of the year... So I dunno if it's cuz QAD left Silkair, her MC curse is passed down to me or its just my luck...Guess its e latter... (QAD! Jk la.. hehe~)
Yesterday morning started off really bad with an extremely heavy rain... Were thinking of my really slippery sandals... Luckily my dad agreed to send me to the TP busstop... Then followed by massive jams despite the fact that I went out 15 mins earlier than usual, I reached tpy inter like 20 mins later than usual..
My 'glorious' arrival at the TPY inter is accompanied by a really nice fall on my back... Guess this fall really mark the worse slip/fall so far... The pain is... I dont know how to describe.... I can't sit at all can... Maybe I can, but the getting up part is really torturous.... My colleagues' guess is tt I had hurt my tailbone/spine.. dunno la... It still hurts..
Now I can't lie down. I cant sit... Alrite, not so bad.. I can sit n lie down.. Just that it isnt easy... I kept on waking up in e middle of the night due to the pain and discomfort... Now, as much as I wan to keng MC... I would rather to be at work now... Sigh..
And ya, I will be off to the polyclinic to see e Dr later... Not sure if I would need a X-ray... I seriously hope its nothing serious! Sigh.. Suay la....
I guess my last 36 bucks to survive till 25th will be depleted by today.. Bless me pls..
-outz-
Yesterday morning started off really bad with an extremely heavy rain... Were thinking of my really slippery sandals... Luckily my dad agreed to send me to the TP busstop... Then followed by massive jams despite the fact that I went out 15 mins earlier than usual, I reached tpy inter like 20 mins later than usual..
My 'glorious' arrival at the TPY inter is accompanied by a really nice fall on my back... Guess this fall really mark the worse slip/fall so far... The pain is... I dont know how to describe.... I can't sit at all can... Maybe I can, but the getting up part is really torturous.... My colleagues' guess is tt I had hurt my tailbone/spine.. dunno la... It still hurts..
Now I can't lie down. I cant sit... Alrite, not so bad.. I can sit n lie down.. Just that it isnt easy... I kept on waking up in e middle of the night due to the pain and discomfort... Now, as much as I wan to keng MC... I would rather to be at work now... Sigh..
And ya, I will be off to the polyclinic to see e Dr later... Not sure if I would need a X-ray... I seriously hope its nothing serious! Sigh.. Suay la....
I guess my last 36 bucks to survive till 25th will be depleted by today.. Bless me pls..
-outz-
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Pondering...
It's a lazy Sunday.... The smoke from the joss sticks is really irritating me....My eyes that is...
Can't wait for Epi 19 to be screen tmr~
Am still considering whether to try for the position Von told me abt... Too many things to consider.. Of course for people who know me well have already given up hopes on me... I am too fickle minded alr... WOrry for too many things that is like not impt... Like what 1 of my colleague say, if I cont to think so much, I will definitely get the Long Service Award from NHG. (Provided I'm not being sacked la... =p)
The Annual Performance Appraisal is coming soon.. Not that I am very bothered by what my superiors gonna say about me. It's not gg to be positive anyway. I can even dream on for wanting a decent testimonial before I leave. However, I am more concern over the money I will get... Imagine if I get a C this year, I am only entitled to 0.25 of certain bonus components la... Sian... If only I do not need to worry so much on the finance for my studies....
Was talking to Regina regarding some issues on growing up... I guess its really like what I seen/heard from somwhere... A person emotion throughout the life is like a 'U' shape.... You start off high, feeling good with all attention being showered on you. And its gradually goes down the slope when responsibilites start to weigh down on our shoulders. Problems from friends, family, your loved one, work start to weigh our heart as well... As you grow older, your kids are grown up and started their own family, your burden then slowly got offloaded 1 by 1. Then you start to feel happier in the golden years of life.
However on 2nd thought, as you feel happier in the later part of life. Does it seems that your own responsibilities are being offloaded onto someone else shoulder? Then the whole vicious cycle continues.. Sigh...
As much as I rant, complain about anything or anyone in my life. I also cant imagine if anyone or any of such disappear from my life. Alright... I guess its more of the people...
So conclusion, thanks to anyone out there who have left their footprints in my life. Even if we are no longer friends, no longer talk to each other. I would hope that there will be 1 day we can still talk when we bump into each other on the streets. But as of now, I hope every single one of u is happy with their life.
And to those whom is still with me. I love all of you. =)
Can't wait for Epi 19 to be screen tmr~
Am still considering whether to try for the position Von told me abt... Too many things to consider.. Of course for people who know me well have already given up hopes on me... I am too fickle minded alr... WOrry for too many things that is like not impt... Like what 1 of my colleague say, if I cont to think so much, I will definitely get the Long Service Award from NHG. (Provided I'm not being sacked la... =p)
The Annual Performance Appraisal is coming soon.. Not that I am very bothered by what my superiors gonna say about me. It's not gg to be positive anyway. I can even dream on for wanting a decent testimonial before I leave. However, I am more concern over the money I will get... Imagine if I get a C this year, I am only entitled to 0.25 of certain bonus components la... Sian... If only I do not need to worry so much on the finance for my studies....
Was talking to Regina regarding some issues on growing up... I guess its really like what I seen/heard from somwhere... A person emotion throughout the life is like a 'U' shape.... You start off high, feeling good with all attention being showered on you. And its gradually goes down the slope when responsibilites start to weigh down on our shoulders. Problems from friends, family, your loved one, work start to weigh our heart as well... As you grow older, your kids are grown up and started their own family, your burden then slowly got offloaded 1 by 1. Then you start to feel happier in the golden years of life.
However on 2nd thought, as you feel happier in the later part of life. Does it seems that your own responsibilities are being offloaded onto someone else shoulder? Then the whole vicious cycle continues.. Sigh...
As much as I rant, complain about anything or anyone in my life. I also cant imagine if anyone or any of such disappear from my life. Alright... I guess its more of the people...
So conclusion, thanks to anyone out there who have left their footprints in my life. Even if we are no longer friends, no longer talk to each other. I would hope that there will be 1 day we can still talk when we bump into each other on the streets. But as of now, I hope every single one of u is happy with their life.
And to those whom is still with me. I love all of you. =)
SIan de lor....
Sian Sian Sian!
I want to cut/trim my hair la....
I want to tidy up my room la....
I want to get MC for tmr la...
BUT....
TOO LAZY LA~
ARGH! Out...
I want to cut/trim my hair la....
I want to tidy up my room la....
I want to get MC for tmr la...
BUT....
TOO LAZY LA~
ARGH! Out...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Backdated Photo Blog
And I am back from a 3d2n chalet with my babes! Hehe~ It's a total R&R chalet retreat.. I guess almost everything is like impromptu.. Including the BBQ... haha~ Here goes... *BEWARE* Lotsa photos!
As me, Jan & Xiao Ben got too bored!
And in actual fact, Jan hates Ben!!!
Introducing the long time ex-lab partners!
As me, Jan & Xiao Ben got too bored! And in actual fact, Jan hates Ben!!!As we got a lil bored during BBQ, we started playing with our cam!
And to prove QAD's fetish here... Haha~
And introducing Hao hao Mao Mao!!!! CUte eh!
On a side note, we had a karaoke session on 05042008... Hehe~ A worthwhile session, I guess we will be gg back to Chinatown for more KBox session? Sigh.. Have a craving for KBox again... ZZ~ Shall we go again soon? hehe~
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Looking forward!
Chalet short getaway is coming! Can't wait la.. Need a breather badly!
TKA is ending in like 3 weeks time? SO SAD CAN!!
And ya, I am having mixed feelings about school now... Can't wait for it to start and can't wait for it to end too... Sigh
Out...
TKA is ending in like 3 weeks time? SO SAD CAN!!
And ya, I am having mixed feelings about school now... Can't wait for it to start and can't wait for it to end too... Sigh
Out...
Sunday, April 6, 2008
TKA Epi 17 synopsis (in Chinese)
第17集
在醫院裡，湘琴立志要當直樹的好幫手，熙恆醫生是直樹的指導醫生。但直樹卻比他受歡迎。
開刀時，湘琴當杜澤森的助手，狀況連連，不但怕看開刀還太過緊張把鉗子刺到杜澤森的手。這讓大家懷疑她的能力，湘琴也對自己失去信心。
一夜突然有車禍病患上門，直樹明知實習醫生不能開刀，但還是當機立斷要替病患開刀，在人員不足下要求湘琴當助手，湘琴臨危授命緊張萬分，也擔心著直樹的前途……
開刀時湘琴還是慌慌張張的，但在直樹帶領下，湘琴看見直樹的專業與專注，湘琴終於當了個稱職的護士。術後，湘琴對直樹讚嘆，這時直樹卻抱住湘琴，直樹這時才顯露出初次醫治重症病患的害怕。
由於直樹自行替病患開刀，醫院開懲處會議，直樹認為自己是為救病患沒錯，眼看就要懲處直樹，在門外偷聽的湘琴衝入替直樹說話，加上護士主任清水說情，肯定直樹的醫術，醫生們討論後決定只罰直樹寫悔過書。
裕樹找直樹談，問他怎麼會喜歡湘琴，直樹說自己可以做到世界上 90 ％的事，而剩下 10
％自己作不到的事，湘琴卻可以做到。直樹說裕樹對好美的心情就是在吃醋。
裕樹到好美學校門口等好美，與好美開誠布公說自己聽見好美說自己沒男友，好美說因為覺得自己不是裕樹女友才會這麼說，感覺不到裕樹喜歡她。裕樹吻好美，向好美告白，兩人正式交往。
直樹在醫院工作勞累，回到家還要看湘琴的看護計畫，沒有休息時間。
在醫院，阿金抱著燙傷的克莉絲汀要直樹醫治，阿金發現只要一有問題，直樹還是最值得依賴的人。
湘琴發現直樹工作繁忙，身心壓力大，但是身為妻子湘琴卻什麼也沒作，湘琴自責。於是湘琴精心料理便當，帶到醫院給直樹，卻從樓梯跌下，直樹護住湘琴而被壓傷昏迷，湘琴大驚。
急診室外，湘琴因使直樹受傷而焦急擔憂，後來才發現直樹是小腿骨折，昏迷是因為直樹缺少休息營養不足。湘琴自願負起責任照顧直樹，但湘琴的照料只是讓直樹更累，湘琴私下替直樹收下直樹的工作，偷偷替直樹分勞寫這些病歷報告，要讓直樹安靜休養。
湘琴也因為護士工作加上分擔直樹的工作，因而身體不適，終於在醫院昏倒，於是作了一次醫療諮詢。
其他醫師來質問直樹的病歷報告，直樹這時知道湘琴幫他作這些工作，直樹怪湘琴把事情作糟，湘琴泣訴自己的無能，但她的作為都是為了直樹好，直樹體認湘琴的用心，怪自己沒能力接好自己妻子才會受傷，這次住院讓他明白患者的心情與湘琴堅強的看護
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GOSH GOSH! Yu shu and Hao mei offically together... Bah!!
And it's ending soon... Sian-ed.. Gonna have those withdrawal syntopms
again!! I
STILL CANT WAIT LA!!
And it's ending soon... Sian-ed.. Gonna have those withdrawal syntopms
again!! I
STILL CANT WAIT LA!!
I can't wait la!!!
CAN THEY KISS AGAIN EPISODE 17 BE UPLOADED NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, April 4, 2008
Mummy's Girl 是也！！
总觉得我好像是人家掌控着的傀儡。没有一丝自己的选择自由的余地。自己的自由也完全被掌控着。出去聚餐也得看脸色，也得撒个谎。这样下去，任何人都会累垮。
难道我现在不是为了自己而活吗? 感觉上我做的每一件事都是为了敷衍,应酬别人的意思和想法。 慢慢的,自己的自我与及思想也活活的被吞没了。
我也发现我正在承担的压力是完全我为了不要起争执而产生的。可是渐渐的, 又为了避开争执发生更多的口角。我又从没尝试过说出我的感受? 尝试了,换来的却是更多的冷言冷语。这也让我觉得其实我的存在会让人感到更不高兴。我知道这些想法是很傻, 不过如果你们也换个角度来看我的人生, 在何时我做的决定真的是为我自己想呢? 说多,事情更多。那又何必说出我到底想什么呢? 算了,就如我以前说过的,就让我在这属于我自己的私人空间法个牢骚吧... 我也会渐渐得学会如何处理自己的想法与及感受。
难道我现在不是为了自己而活吗? 感觉上我做的每一件事都是为了敷衍,应酬别人的意思和想法。 慢慢的,自己的自我与及思想也活活的被吞没了。
我也发现我正在承担的压力是完全我为了不要起争执而产生的。可是渐渐的, 又为了避开争执发生更多的口角。我又从没尝试过说出我的感受? 尝试了,换来的却是更多的冷言冷语。这也让我觉得其实我的存在会让人感到更不高兴。我知道这些想法是很傻, 不过如果你们也换个角度来看我的人生, 在何时我做的决定真的是为我自己想呢? 说多,事情更多。那又何必说出我到底想什么呢? 算了,就如我以前说过的,就让我在这属于我自己的私人空间法个牢骚吧... 我也会渐渐得学会如何处理自己的想法与及感受。
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
好累。。。
It get too tiring when you don't know why you're working so hard for...
It gets too tiring when no one appreciate.recognise but make u a scapegoat instead..
Sigh... My job rocks to e core la! I so love my job. I shall really aim for the long service award! My career goal shall be a Pharmacy Executive in 15 years time. ZZZ
It gets too tiring when no one appreciate.recognise but make u a scapegoat instead..
Sigh... My job rocks to e core la! I so love my job. I shall really aim for the long service award! My career goal shall be a Pharmacy Executive in 15 years time. ZZZ
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
I DONT WANT TO WORK!
I HATE TO WORK!~
I HATE MY JOB!~
ARGH!~
Anyway it feels nice to meetup with my girlies after work la.. LoL~ QAD, next time when we meetup come to TPY and we go tamp tog la... =X
Nitez world!~ This is a pointless entry!
I HATE MY JOB!~
ARGH!~
Anyway it feels nice to meetup with my girlies after work la.. LoL~ QAD, next time when we meetup come to TPY and we go tamp tog la... =X
Nitez world!~ This is a pointless entry!
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Belated Bdae Celeb for QAD!
Metup with my dearies ytd for Von's belated bdae celeb...
Had lunch @Swensen's and I had my curry chix baked rice finally~ Not as nice though...
Then we proceed on for BC 10,000.. Movie wasn't that bad. Just felt that the movie is kinda like... no objective.. haha~ nvm~
Then off we go to Hong Kong cafe for a tea... Hehe~ Wrong move la.. All 3 of us ain't that hungry though I do think I am.. End up I can't finish my food too... And those 2 girls start to take photos with the granny turtle, which is actually e bdae gift from us to vonnie...
And we embark on our shopping after we took some neoprints.. Hehe~ Both of them seems to be in a good shopping mode.. Both have got good buys... I am in e mood but my wallet no mood la.. Sadded... nvm~ next time then...
The whole day is pretty spirit lifting and I did go home feeling very happy.. haha~ but it didn't last long. If any of u read my prev entry would know I got into something bad at home again.. But forget it la.. Just ranting.. am ok alr.. =) Aites... Pics on the next coming post ~ =)
Had lunch @Swensen's and I had my curry chix baked rice finally~ Not as nice though...
Then we proceed on for BC 10,000.. Movie wasn't that bad. Just felt that the movie is kinda like... no objective.. haha~ nvm~
Then off we go to Hong Kong cafe for a tea... Hehe~ Wrong move la.. All 3 of us ain't that hungry though I do think I am.. End up I can't finish my food too... And those 2 girls start to take photos with the granny turtle, which is actually e bdae gift from us to vonnie...
And we embark on our shopping after we took some neoprints.. Hehe~ Both of them seems to be in a good shopping mode.. Both have got good buys... I am in e mood but my wallet no mood la.. Sadded... nvm~ next time then...
The whole day is pretty spirit lifting and I did go home feeling very happy.. haha~ but it didn't last long. If any of u read my prev entry would know I got into something bad at home again.. But forget it la.. Just ranting.. am ok alr.. =) Aites... Pics on the next coming post ~ =)
It gets too tiring....
When I have to be a...
- daughter
- sister
- friend
- colleague
- pharmacy technician
- caregiver
- role model
it gets too tiring....
However when I have to be a....
- filial daughter
- giving sister
- best friend
- proactive colleague
- responsible pharmacy technician
- compassionate pharmacy technician
- good role model
And again within each role there are so many other character you and I have to play. The angel, the baddie, the leader, the scapegoat and etc. I really really admire those who can play everything so well from the bottom of my heart.
And I admit I can't handle this well. It felt too overwhelming for oneself or should I say, myself.
The burden is so heavy that I wonder.
When can I be myself? A 'myself' that is true to my ownself.
Why do I always feel I am living for the others and not myself.
I am feeling so small (literally) and jaded that I felt I don't belong to myself anymore. 迟早有一天，我真地会疯掉。。。
- daughter
- sister
- friend
- colleague
- pharmacy technician
- caregiver
- role model
it gets too tiring....
However when I have to be a....
- filial daughter
- giving sister
- best friend
- proactive colleague
- responsible pharmacy technician
- compassionate pharmacy technician
- good role model
And again within each role there are so many other character you and I have to play. The angel, the baddie, the leader, the scapegoat and etc. I really really admire those who can play everything so well from the bottom of my heart.
And I admit I can't handle this well. It felt too overwhelming for oneself or should I say, myself.
The burden is so heavy that I wonder.
When can I be myself? A 'myself' that is true to my ownself.
Why do I always feel I am living for the others and not myself.
I am feeling so small (literally) and jaded that I felt I don't belong to myself anymore. 迟早有一天，我真地会疯掉。。。
Saturday, March 15, 2008
HAPPY BURFDAE QAD!
Dearest QAD! Happy birthday!!! Anyway after confirming with CE whether he let us to put the tou in his car, we decided not to give u the initial present... So please tell us what u want la... k? Hehe! We shall continue the love on the 22nd! Happy birthday once again!!!Wednesday, March 12, 2008
My boss..
'I am very fair one right.....'
'Ehh.... Hai hao la.....'
'I am not prejudiced against the youngsters'
'No you're not, only when any problem arises... The youngsters will be the 1st line suspect only....No la.. you;re not prejudiced, blame it on the fact that we're that INEXPERIENCED'
'You know ah.... We need to isolate the rotten apple... We cannot put the rotten apple together with fresh apples right....'
'Often when 1 is rotten, he/she will not know.. So if I tell u u're really rotten, what will u do.. And by the way, whose the rotten apple you're referring to?'
Conclusion: My boss/es is extremely fucked up in the ass. This convo is just like what... 5% of e whole convo... KNS~
'Ehh.... Hai hao la.....'
'I am not prejudiced against the youngsters'
'No you're not, only when any problem arises... The youngsters will be the 1st line suspect only....No la.. you;re not prejudiced, blame it on the fact that we're that INEXPERIENCED'
'You know ah.... We need to isolate the rotten apple... We cannot put the rotten apple together with fresh apples right....'
'Often when 1 is rotten, he/she will not know.. So if I tell u u're really rotten, what will u do.. And by the way, whose the rotten apple you're referring to?'
Conclusion: My boss/es is extremely fucked up in the ass. This convo is just like what... 5% of e whole convo... KNS~
Saturday, March 1, 2008
o.k.a.e
I am feeling better alr.... All I need is to rant, rmb? =)
I am so gg to catch Koizora (恋空)~ My mIRC kaki back from the 2000 days came raving about how much she cried for this movie.. Hehe~ I shall catch it soon.... (http://koizora-movie.jp/index.html)
ANyway this is a really random post... So ya.... bye~
update: tudou has got koizora.... =D
p/s: anyone want to go n watch it with me? heard tt its a tearjerker though...
I am so gg to catch Koizora (恋空)~ My mIRC kaki back from the 2000 days came raving about how much she cried for this movie.. Hehe~ I shall catch it soon.... (http://koizora-movie.jp/index.html)
ANyway this is a really random post... So ya.... bye~
update: tudou has got koizora.... =D
p/s: anyone want to go n watch it with me? heard tt its a tearjerker though...
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
一个不像家的家。。。
一个总是说我不为她着想，一个又总是不为大局着想。
她总是责备我说怎么我总是帮他说话。。
他又总是对我发牢骚说会什么她总是怀疑他。。。
她总是对我哭诉说她又多累，怎么我一点都不体谅她。。。
他又总是对我说会什么她总是那个老样子，她最好不要得寸进尺， 不然你会让她后悔。。
她也总是说她自己一个人在战场， 没人支持她，没人相信她的想法。。。 生儿育女有个屁用。。。
他又总是一错再错，跟着让她不知所措。。。
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难道真的只有你们在煎熬吗？
难道只有你们俩觉得累吗？
难道我就没有资格说‘我累了’吗？
我并不是铁石心肠的，你们知道吗？
算了，不要理我。。。 让我发个牢骚吧。。。 不然我真的会疯掉。。。
她总是责备我说怎么我总是帮他说话。。
他又总是对我发牢骚说会什么她总是怀疑他。。。
她总是对我哭诉说她又多累，怎么我一点都不体谅她。。。
他又总是对我说会什么她总是那个老样子，她最好不要得寸进尺， 不然你会让她后悔。。
她也总是说她自己一个人在战场， 没人支持她，没人相信她的想法。。。 生儿育女有个屁用。。。
他又总是一错再错，跟着让她不知所措。。。
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难道真的只有你们在煎熬吗？
难道只有你们俩觉得累吗？
难道我就没有资格说‘我累了’吗？
我并不是铁石心肠的，你们知道吗？
算了，不要理我。。。 让我发个牢骚吧。。。 不然我真的会疯掉。。。
Monday, February 25, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
A day to unwind~
Well, today's my leave and I went out to town with Sze hui to unwind...
A buffet lunch @ Kuishinbo
KBox session from 2pm tp 7pm... (Blardy worth it.... 12 pieces of nuggets, free flow of coke/sprite, fruits & tidbits just @ $14.50 nett per person...)
Shopping after tt...
Shiok or not...
But my wallet is very sad now.. ZZZ~
A buffet lunch @ Kuishinbo
KBox session from 2pm tp 7pm... (Blardy worth it.... 12 pieces of nuggets, free flow of coke/sprite, fruits & tidbits just @ $14.50 nett per person...)
Shopping after tt...
Shiok or not...
But my wallet is very sad now.. ZZZ~
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